Saving Grace *Body Guard series*

Saving Grace: Chapter 2 Teasing You

I had gone shopping with the girls, of course Terrell had to come but I had asked him to keep his distance so he wasn't noticed by them. I didn't need the extra drama explaining to them I had my own bodyguard...
We walked into Victoria Secret and Terrell was hesitant to follow us inside. I watched the girls walk further in before I walked over to him.
"You don't have to come inside I'm sure we'll be fine. If I need you I'll call for you" I said reassuring him. He nodded his head and sat on the bench.
I headed back into the store.
After looking at their lingerie I settled on one: a lacy black bodysuit. If I couldn't get him to trust me cause he views me as a paycheck then I'll just make this personal. I bought the outfit and they wrapped it nicely in the bag for me, putting my perfumes on top. I walked out with the girls and I nodded slightly at him as we headed to other stores.
After we were done and ate lunch the girls headed back home after I told them my dad was picking me up. Obviously a lie, but I  couldn't possibly tell them the truth.
I walked out with Terrell towards his car. I put my bags in the back and got in the front. We stayed quiet the whole ride back. Nothing but the radio was playing.

I waited until the rest of the staff left the house and I ran up to my room and changed into my black lacy lingerie body suit.
"Oh Terrell" I said, smirking just thinking of what his reaction to this will be. I know he heard me. "Or should I say daddy" my voice filled with mischief. T opens the door revealing him wearing just a casual white tee shirt and grey sweat pants.
I watched as he rolled his eyes and turned his face away from me.
" what do you think?" He turns to face me once more and I pull him in closer by his shirt.
"You're never any fun! Just look at me!" I plead. I feel his eyes wander from my blue eyes along my body to my chest past my stomach and down to my thong. I watch as his  eyes go back up my body up to my eyes he slowly closed his and yanks his face away trying to distract himself.
" I know you feel something for me." I stated bluntly. I took a piece of my long brown hair and twirled it around my finger tips.
I felt the tension in the air and for a moment I almost thought I won. That he'd break. But he just looked back at me, anger rose in his eyes and he left, slamming the door behind him.
A tinge of guilt knotted in my stomach as I went and laid down on the bed. I know he's just trying to do his job, but I just want him to feel for me how I feel for him. I want his appreciation and love. Even though I barely knew him nor knew what he actually looked like under the mask. 

The next couple months I kept my distance with him. Avoided talking to him, touching him, even trying to provoke him. I just want to be left alone.
I've perfected the art of sneaking out. Even if it just means I go to the back yard to be alone to think.
I'm floating in the pool in the darkness, the stars are my only source of light. A light breeze blows over me and my skin is soon covered in goose bumps. I hear the pump circulating as I float with my eyes closed.
Suddenly I hear Terrell's voice yelling.
I stop floating and just stood there in the shallow part watching him. He's red in the face and screaming, and for whatever reason, I just find him so attractive.
"DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND MY JOB IS TO KNOW WHERE YOU ARE AT ALL TIMES?" He screams at me. I smile at him, but I don't respond.
"YOU CANT BE SNEAKING OUT OF YOUR ROOM IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO SWIM!  WHAT IF YOU DROWNED?! WHAT IF SOMEONE FOUND YOU AND TOOK OFF WITH YOU?! ID NEVER KNOW!!"
I rolled my eyes and swam away from him towards the deeper part, diving under the water. I swam to the wall and pushed myself up out of the water onto my knees. I squeezed my hair, trying to get all the water out.
"Please it's not like you actually give a shit about me. I'm just a paycheck to you. Don't worry my father isn't around so you don't have to keep that stick up your ass." I said as I watched my feet wafting through the water. I could feel his eyes burning holes into me but I choose to ignore him. Not like he could do anything. He can't hurt me, and he can't ground me. I felt his hand wrap around my forearm as he pulled me up from the pool. I turned to face him.
"You are to listen to me and respect me as I am your authority while your father is gone" he said, his voice low and dripping with poison.
"Absent you mean. While he is absent. He never cared to be much in my life anyway. Now I just have some kid that's barely older than me, trying to act like him" I inhaled sharply. " WELL GUESS WHAT? YOU'RE NOT MY FUCKING FATHER SO YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR AUTHORITY UP YOUR ASS. I REFUSE TO LISTEN TO SOMEONE BARELY OLDER THAN ME WHO I HAVE ZERO RESPECT FOR" I screamed at him yanking my arm out of his grasp.  "Just leave me the hell alone and stop stalking me in my own home" I said while walking back to sit down beside the pool.
After a few long minutes I feel him sit beside me by the pool. He rolled up his jeans and stuck his feet in the water.
" I know it hurts you not being close to your father, and that you're stuck with me instead. I'm just trying to look out for you and keep you safe. I never thought I was so cold to you that it'd cause you to hate me. That was never my intentions" he said, his voice quite.
"Yeah well maybe you just don't think at all, do you?" I said bitterly refusing to look at him.
"Grace how do I fix this? I don't want you to hate me, I need you to trust me."
" Nothing. What I want, is for you to go back inside and leave me alone" I said coldly.
He sighed and then got up and left me in silence.  I ran my fingers through my wet hair and I cried.
It's times like this I wish my mom didn't die in a car accident. I need her more now than ever.

A few weeks went by and I warmed up to Terrell. He really was trying to make me laugh or at least smile. But internally I still felt depressed. I felt like I needed to cry but couldn't. He sat on the couch in the living room and I was in the kitchen. I heard my phone ring.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Honey how are you doing? I miss you. How is Terrell treating you?" I heard my father's voice on the other side. Tears brimmed my eyes.
"When are you coming home?" He had been gone for about two months.
"I don't know yet, I'm still trying to get things done. How have you been?"
"They've been okay, I hung out with my friends and we-"
"That's great honey, listen I gotta go, but I love you"
" I love you-" I heard the phone go dead. I lost it I started sobbing, sinking down the fridge and onto the floor. My hands covering my face as I cried. My chest was burning and I couldn't breathe.
Loud foot steps ran up to me and I felt T's arms around my shoulders and he was pulling me into his chest.
"Shhh" he said as he was trying to console me.
I cried into his chest and he just held me on his lap on the kitchen floor.
He ran his fingers through my hair and calmed me down.
"What happened?" He asked while running his fingers through my hair. 
" Its hard going to school and seeing parents dropping their kids off to school and knowing my mother is dead and my father is always gone. We're not close and we never will be. I can't ever call and just talk to him because he's always busy. He called just a bit ago and I couldn't even tell him that I loved him because he hung up."
"He loves you Grace. He's just unfortunately very busy with his job and he needs to stay focused. It'll get better."
"What could be more important than seeing me grow up and being there for me? He's my father, Terrell. Not my estranged uncle" I responded looking down at the floor. He put his two fingers under my chin and lifted my face to look at him. His other hand wiped the tears from my eyes.
"I'm here and I care about you Grace. Your dad loves you so much. He wouldn't go out of his way to make sure you were looked after; if he didn't care about you."
I nestled my head under his chin and just laid on his chest.
"Come on you need to go to bed, it's late" he said scooping me up. He walked up the stairs like I weighed nothing.
He walked into my room and tried to put me down on the  bed and I clung to him.
"No I don't want to be alone" I cried into his chest. He sighed. He sat on the bed, me in his lap.
"I'll lay with you until you fall asleep but I'm not going to sleep next to you. It's inappropriate"
" Yeah I would never want you to actually care about me, like I do you" I mumbled under my breath and laid down. I felt him shuffle around the bed and laid down behind me wrapping his arm around my torso. He pulled me to him and sighed.
"I've already explained this to you, Grace. I can't. Even if I wanted too, I can't. You're dad wouldn't allow me too" he voice filled my ears. I sat up and looked at him laying on my pillow.
"Who gives a shit? It's not like he's ever here? It's not like he'd know if anything happened between us?! He choose you to protect me, doesn't that mean he trusts you? He should trust you to take care of me" I said. Looking down at my hands.
He tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear then used his index finger to lift my chin.
I looked at him.
"I want too, Grace. But I can't."
I shook my head and tears streamed down my face. I got out of the bed. He got up too, and walked over to me. He tried to embrace me in a hug but I shoved him away.
"Stop messing with my head. I know you don't want me. I'm just a paycheck to you. No one cares about me for me, they only pretend because they're frightened of my father."
"Grace, listen-"
"No! Get out!"
"Grace, please-"
"GET OUT OF MY ROOM" I screamed. He looked down and turned and left my room, shutting the door. I crumbled to the floor and cried until I became so exhausted that I passed out on the floor.