Thoughts At Night :(

"I am good"

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When you just can't sleep and you're fighting the tears away. Sleepless nights and sore red eyes. All the insecurities building up inside. I will continue being the side option just so I don't lose you. And from now on I am always good, whether I'm fighting tears and emotions or physical pain what you will hear is that "I am good" to put your mind at peace and that will become the new "I'm fine" because no one ever really wants to hear my complaints because "you're just exaggerating" and no one will help me heal because "it's not that bad" and no one will care that I cry "just get over it" is the way to deal and no one will hear me scream! Because that's just in my head as no one will care... Because even when you have that someone, you are always alone. So why is that I waste so many tissues still after every time, maybe I'm just "overly needy" But that's fine because from now on "I am good" is all you'll see and hear as everything else doesn't exist in your mind. So "I am good" at all times.