Thoughts At Night :(

Losing Myself

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I think I'm losing myself. Or maybe I never found myself... I throw myself into the world of others, desperately trying to find a purpose a sense of fulfilment, a moment of happiness yet all I feel is numbness. There's no real joy in the laughs that come out... Yet no one notices when the smiles don't reach my eyes.

I desperately want a release. I want something to steady me on my feet, where all the insecurities and voices quieten down, where all I know is that I'm good for now, something to fill the void in my heart.

I want the background to fade away, and all to matter is me, with no hesitation or fear lingering because that release should be the comfort in the chaos of my mind, the singular thing to quieten my mind...