⚠️ Trigger Warning : Sexual Assault ⚠️
Solana
I looked up at my ceiling in my room. My lights were red and my back arched off of my bed. My moans filled the room as I teased myself with one of my toys. I tapped on my clit and rubbed it. I had a big tee on and I slid my panties to the side. I didn't know how to be quiet I just couldn't. I slid the toy inside of me and was immediately grateful that I had my own apartment.
Pressure began to build up in my stomach. I knew I was about to cum.
*knock knock* "open the door Solana"
A familiar voice interrupted me.
"Come on it's Kayla , it's cold as fuck out here."
I had to stop myself. Of course I couldn't finish. But Kayla's been my friend for a while now , since highschool. Now we're 21, grown as shit. I've always had a thing for her but I refuse to hurt myself like that. Sometimes we'd fuck but I'd never pursue a real relationship with her.
I cleaned up and put my toy away. I put some baggy grey sweats on and I went pee.
"Solana I'm gon kill you," Kayla kept knocking
"I'm coming , I'm coming," I groaned
I made it to the door and opened it.
"Well if it isn't the slowest person I've ever met,"
She said as she let herself in.
"I was ... busy," I closed the door behind her
"Mhm , what you was playing with miss kitty?" She smirked and lit a blunt
"Kayla if you don't leave me alone," I grabbed a water from the fridge
"You look good Solana," she licked her lips and looked at me
Oh god keep it together. Keep it together.
"You just talking shit , gimmie," I grabbed the blunt and set it in between my lips
She wouldn't look away from me.
"You must be high as hell, how many hits did you take?" I joked , trying to make the air less tense.
"Nah I'm not playin," she looked me in my eyes
"What's wrong with you? You on something strong today?" I walked from the kitchen into the next room, my apartment was pretty open so she followed me.
"Nothing," she grabbed my arm pulling me to her. She was being extra aggressive? I wasn't use to this and I didn't like it.
"What happen with Marco?" I asked . They're always on and off but he always makes it known that Kayla's his.
She sucked her teeth. Her phone went off and she looked down to see his name on her phone. I hate when she does this shit. Whenever we fuck after she's hurt I fall for her and she goes back to him every time. Last time we fucked was the last time.
We both looked down at her phone.
"Go head, answer" I grabbed her phone and handed it to her.
She answered
"Hey,"
"Where you at?" He sounded angry
"Marco it's none of your business," she sighed we both knew this was gonna start some bullshit
"You my bitch Kayla. You know that shit don't fucking play with," he growled
"I'm not. We're done forreal," she looked up at me almost as if that's something she wanted me to know
"Kayl-" *beep beep beep*
She hung up.
"Solana," she walked over to me
"Yes?" I looked at the carpet beneath me
"I know I've hurt you,"
Here she goes with this bullshit. Here it is every time. The same bullshit excuse. She's gonna get back with him tomorrow and I'm gonna be here by myself looking stupid for believing all the lies she'll tells.
"Save it. Maybe you should leave," I sat on my couch
"Solana-"
"No , I can't do this with you Kayla. We're just friends I'm not someone you can go to when you're sad over this nigga," I had a serious tone of voice.
I was tired of it
"Stop being like that Solana, let me fuck you" she came to me and held me down to the couch.
"What the fuck Kayla, get off of me," I tried to get her off of me but it was like she overpowered me.
Kayla's never done this before.
"Get off," I kneed her in the stomach and pushed her off of me. She hit the floor, hard.
"Solana stop resisting me,"
I got up and backed away
" I'm going to call the police if you don't get your crazy ass out of my apartment," I scolded her
I walked towards the kitchen and grabbed a knife. I was not afraid to get my hands dirty.
"Get the fuck out."
She grabbed her shit, got it together and left. Slamming my door. I locked the door behind her and set down the knife. I exhaled.
What the fuck?
Was all I could think.
Did she just try to rape me?
My mind was racing. The last time anyone ever tried to touch me like that I was raped. It was by this boy. After that day I couldn't look at men, I was attracted to women only anyways. But I guess anyone could do that to you.
I set a bath for myself. I washed my face before I got in and I looked at myself in the mirror. I could point out all my flaws. My insecurities ate away at me. I couldn't help but this of Kayla. Or the person I thought she was? My face rested in my hands. I removed my clothes and looked at my scars. I took it all in.
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