|A Scout's First Love||Levi Ackerman

Chapter thirdteen

Y/N's POV

My eyes were full of tears I could not see where I was going, but my body did knew. I could not control myself, I let my weak body take over me. The sight that I never wanted to see, came true.
Levi kissed Petra, right in front of my eyes.
Did he really lie about everything? About the first day we met? About how he saved me and take care of me? When he took me to the mountains? When he kissed me? When he confessed his feelings for me?! Was it all a lie!
I finally arrived at my room, I don't know how I made it but I did. I could finally let the tears I've been holding for so long. I covered my mouth so no one from outside could hear my loud sobs. The scene of Petra and Levi kissing was spinning around my head. My eyes were still crying, my heart was aching really bad.

Year 850
Yes, it has been five years since the incident of Petra and Levi. I always see them together, I pretend that it does not hurt me. But I'm reality it's eating me inside each day. I cry everyday silently without no one around. Ever since we have never spoken to each other ever again.  I heard a loud knock on my door and startled a bit.
Eren:"Sasha! Y/N! If you are there get ready! The female Titan is attacking!" he screamed from outside
I quickly stood up and put my everyday uniform to go out and fight.
I'm on my way now to fight the Female Titan. I was riding my horse to the forest were that monster was at. It has been said that it's one of us, one of us scouts. It was confirmed that it was Annie, I've never made contact with her. And now I will never talk to her, she's out enemy now.
Erwin:"Spread out don't let her get Eren!"
The Female Titan wanted Eren, for what? Not sure since I never go to the meetings because Levi is there. I did what commander Erwin said and flew with my odm gear taking two blades out.
Mikasa and everyone were attacking her, I was too. It was a difficult and dangerous task since she's a smart Titan.
Oulo:"Petra watch out!!"
It was too late the Female Titan squashed Petra. Not only her but the rest of Levi's squad has died because of her. I was with full on rage and was going to attack her, without me knowing she swing her hand at me. Before it was too late someone grabbed me, I turned around and it was Levi. I took my one of my blades and put it on his neck.

Y/N:"Don't you fucking touch me, bastard."

I went my own way with my odm gear and escaped with Eren and Mikasa. Levi's face expression hurt me, but it was the only way I can treat him for what he did. It has been five years since we last talk, today was the day I for the first time made contact with him. It felt so new as if in we just met and were strangers to each other, which we were.
All of the scouts arrived at the headquarters, our faces were gloomy and scared at the same time. I got down my horse and placed him on his cabin.
Erwin called Eren, Mikasa, Armin, Sasha, Connie, Jean, Christa, Ymir, Reiner, Bertholt, Hange, Levi, and finally me to his office.
We all sat down on a table and waited for Erwin to start to talking.
Erwin:"As you all know, the Female Titan has killing many of our comrades. Annie has been captured, no need to worry. But the reason why I called everyone here is because Levi has something important to say.
Levi took a sip of his tea and looked at each of one of us, including me.
Levi:"My first squad died as you all know, now it's time to choose my second squad. All of you will be part of my new squad."
Wow, I never knew he was going to choose me after what happened five years ago. Everyone looked happy and excited especially Eren. I just crossed my arms and looked away. Hange was present too, she smiled and congratulated everyone. I was happy but at the same time I was not. Now I have to spend the rest of my life next to him and see him everyday. It wasn't a good feeling but what can I do. I can't refuse, this has been a dream of mine. I need to be strong, for my brother and mother. My mind, heart, and body could not handle it anymore and left Erwin's office. Levi's presence bothers me, am I slowly hating Levi?

Levi's POV

Once I chose my second squad everyone started celebrating except for Y/N. She had her arms crossed and her gaze was on the floor. It hurts me seeing her treat me this way. But I deserve it, I choose my role as a captain over her. And not only that, I chose Petra over Y/N. But she's gone now, I can my move and finally talk to her. I then saw how she left Erwin's office. Erwin was busy with the rest and did not saw Y/N leave the office.
"This is my chance to talk to her"
I looked everywhere and started searching for her. I went up to the roof and nothing, I even checked the mess hall and her room, but no sign of her.
"Where could she be at?"
But then a place came to mind, the mountains. No, that is the least place she would go to. I didn't hesitate and got on my horse and went to the mountains. I was approaching and saw a light, is someone camping? Quietly I got down my horse and started walking slowly. I saw Y/N sitting on a rock in front of the fire she has set with wood. Her head was lowered down, I went to the other side of the tree I was in to see her closely. She was holding the flower I gave her, but it was all dried up now. She then looked at the fire and threw the flower, the flower was slowly burning until it turned into ash.
Wow, I didn't knew she hates me that much that she had to burn the flower I gave her. She stood up and said something that shocked me.

Y/N:"Why are you following me, captain Levi." she said as she turned around.
I quickly hid behind the tree and froze. Shit, I didn't knew she saw me. Did I made noise? How did she knew.
Y/N:"Come out your coward, face me."
Her tone of her voice hurt me, the way she talks to me now made a deeper hole on my heart. But I can't face her, I'm too scared. I sat down behind the tree and stroked my hair back in frustration.
"Fuck, should I come out? Or leave? But I really want to explain everything that happened five years ago. I need to tell her the truth, that Erwin forced me to do all of this. It wasn't because of me, I would never take such decision but I was too scared. I really am a coward, a stupid useless coward.

The End.

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