Submissive Desires

5 - The Meeting

Ciarren arrives at the diner early, but he proceeds to find them a table anyway. He picks a booth opposite the door. It made him feel better to have direct sight of the exit. This way he would be able to see everyone who entered and would be able to leave quickly if needed.

"Hello, My name is Tanner and I will be your waiter today." The sound of the waiter made Ciarren jump, but he relaxed just slightly as he recognized the customer service tone. He placed a menu in front of him before stepping back. "What can I get you to drink?"

"Oh uhm can I just get a hot chocolate please? With extra whip cream?" Ciarrens voice was soft and shy. He didn't notice the waiters eyes lingering on him longer than necessary as he kept his eyes glued to the menu.

"Of course. Do you know what you want to order?" The waiter's voice took on a sweet tone that went unnoticed by the shy customer.

"W-well I'm waiting for someone... They should be here in like ten minutes... So i'll just wait..." Ciarren peeked up at the waiter from under his eyelashes. He just wanted him to leave so he could spend the next ten minutes trying to decide what to get. He was scared his anxiety would not allow him to eat and it would be rude to his client, but he was hoping he would get away with ordering something small and focus on taking notes. Maybe Jesper wouldn't notice. The waiter frowned at the lack of attention and turned back towards the kitchen.

Ciarren sat at the table and read through the menu a dozen times. He wasn't any closer to deciding on what to eat. He had never been good at making decisions. It was one of the things that he really liked about being a submissive. He didn't have to stress about the little things, the simple things such as where or what to eat, but now he was alone. It hit him all over again just how alone and out of his element he was. Even when he wasn't with a dom he trusted Osiris to make these kinds of decisions for him, but now he didn't have anyone. He just hoped that his friends back home wouldn't be too made at him when he finally decided to contact them. He was so caught up in his thoughts and anxieties that he didn't even realize that someone had slid into the booth across from him.

A hand sliding onto his menu made him jump and look up in surprise. He was even more surprised as his eyes met gold. He had never seen eyes this color and he was mesmerized by them. The eyes were kind and happy. It took him a moment before his eyes took in the rest of the man. His skin was tanned and clear. His hair that was cut short on sides, the top currently sat in a small bun on top of his head, and was dyed platinum blonde. The best way to describe his smile was friendly, there was no ill intent written on his face anywhere. Overall, he was attractive. He was taller than Ciarren, everyone was, but he wasn't scary tall.

"Ciarren, right? I'm Jesper. Sorry if I startled you." Jesper kept his face soft. He didn't want to scare the man more than he obviously was.

Ciarren nodded unconsciously, but started to speak when Jesper raised an eyebrow. "Yes, that's me. It's nice to meet you. I'm really excited for this opportunity." Ciarren smiled shyly at the man. He was confused, his mind and body were at war. He was scared of him, but he didn't want to be. He wanted to trust him. He wanted to get to know him, maybe be friends. He didn't want to be alone anymore, but he was so scared. He was so scared that maybe he would turn out like Max or he would turn him into Max or that Max would find him and hurt him. He needed to stop thinking about it or he was going to throw himself into a panic attack. Instead he focused on what this meeting was for, work. He remembered that nobody knows where he is and that means Max can't find him. It would be good to have an ally in this big city and Jesper might just be a good option, but for now he chose to focus on creating the website. All while Ciarren was lost in thought, Jesper was observing him. He could practically see the war waging within him. He watched his body tense with panic and just as he was preparing to say something Ciarren suddenly released most of the tension and settled into an almost relaxed professional stance within the booth.