You've got fucking nerve for calling me a conditional lover when thats how we started out. I agreed to be your fling to see if I was a catch, enough for you to take us seriously, to the next level. I hang on without knowing if we'd make it, I kept my promises, you wish you could say the same. You're taking all this out on me for not realising how sensitive the situation was, bitch I'm sensitive enough as it is. I said "I wish I could still say I loved you" but that was a fucking lie. all this hurt just isn't worth the trouble I signed up for.
You say I wanted us to be perfect and I was picking you apart, you really think I wanted us to start out the way we did? Or I wanted to fall in the first place? I'd say you were a mistake but that's tough love. "I laid it all out for you", you think you're alone in saying that? And you were the only one putting any work into this? Who was the one who used her savings just to visit by plane, all on her own? Who finally worked up the strength to come out to her family? And who kept holding on even when things got tough? You ended this so don't start calling me out for your flaws.
Good luck playing the victim card, I hope you take the time to work on your apology letter, because god knows I've written you enough so one day you'll learn the irony. there's a million reasons I don't forgive myself but you won't be one, I won't cry over you anymore because you don't deserve these tears. goodbye hypocrite, I wish you the best, now I'm finally over you.
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Poems
Poetryshort poems that could also be songs i thought of on a whim. most of these are a bit old but recently i was told by a friend to publish them as they're, quote on quote "not bad" so i take that to the stand by broadcasting them here. take a gander.
