Brighter Stars // Billie Eilish gxg

s e v e n

After a long day of classes, I make my way back to the hotel room and shut the door behind me. I know I need to work on homework and study for my upcoming exams, but I feel like my attention span is basically gone as of late.

I glance over at the clock, and it's about 8:30pm. Billie should be here soon, fuck. I need to get freshened up.

I change into a pair of sweatpants and a crop top, and tie my long blonde hair into a high ponytail. I really wish I had some perfume or something. Why do I feel the need to impress her so much?

I get a knock on the door. It has to be Billie. I make my way to the door and open it, but instead it's a bag stapled shut.

I carefully pick it up and bring it inside. There's a card attached to the bag.

"Happy anniversary! Love, the Martens."

This was definitely delivered to the wrong room. I shrug and open the bag anyways, revealing a bottle of red wine and some whiskey.

I'm definitely keeping this.

I use my keys to remove the cork from the bottle of wine and take a big swig out of the bottle.

"Holy shit." I mutter to myself.

I look at the label. It's probably hella expensive but it's the best wine I've ever had. I hop onto the bed with the bottle and flip on the TV.

About 20 minutes goes by with my eyes fixed on "Wheel of Fortune" since it seems to be the only decent thing on right now, when I hear a knock at the door again. I stumble out of bed and sloppily open the door.

Billie stands at the doorway wearing black shorts and a black and neon green hoodie.

"Thank god you're here! I'm literally starving." I say, pulling her inside.

"Ok, you smell like booze." Billie says.

"Dude, someone delivered this badass bottle of wine to the wrong room." I say, picking it up and showing her.

"You drank that much? Damn girl." She says, making a face.

I glance at the bottle and realize that I drank over half of it without even knowing.

"Oh shit." I say.

"Well I brought vegan pizza!" She exclaims, giddly displaying the box to me.

"Ew what the hell." I groan, taking another swig.

"Shut up dork, it isn't that bad." Billie sits the pizza down on the table and flips the box open.

Despite my reservations about this pizza, I grab a few slices and Billie and I watch wheel of fortune, competing to see who can guess the phrase the fastest. It actually isn't that bad, although the cheese tastes a little bit off.

"Dude, I'm getting sleepy." Billie says, rubbing her eyes.

"You're staying right?" I whine, leaning on her shoulder.

"My mom is gonna have so many questions if I keep staying." She giggles.

"Who cares, Stay anyways." I snuggle a little more, almost as if I'm holding her so tight that even if she wanted to she couldn't leave.

"I'll stay." She yawns, leaning her head on top of mine.

I pull away and smile at her.

"Your teeth are red, stupid." She laughs, nudging me with her elbow.

"Oops. I'm gonna go brush." I say, hopping up and taking one last gulp out of the bottle.

"No way you drank all of that. Do you feel drunk?" She says, raising her eyebrows.

"I mean, not really." I respond, sitting the bottle down and making my way over to the bathroom.

After taking a couple of steps I realize that maybe I am a little drunk. I trip over my bag on the ground and nearly faceplant, sending me into a fit of laughter.

"You're definitely drunk." Billie laughs, pulling the hood over her head and slouching further under the sheets.

I brush my teeth sloppily trying to erase all of the evidence of the red wine in my breath and on my teeth. When I'm done, I flop into bed and lay facing Billie with the blankets pulled up to my chin.

She notices my gaze and flips over and faces me as well. Our noses are a couple inches apart, and I can feel her warm breath on my face.

"Hey, I hate to be corny but I've never actually enjoyed myself this much with someone." I slur. I feel a goofy grin spreading across my face.

"I hate to be corny too, but I feel the same." She laughs, readjusting herself a little.

"Can I tell you a secret?" I ask, feeling my judgement slipping away.

"Shoot." She says.

"You make me feel safe and secure. I've never felt safe and secure before and I just really appreciate it." I smile, ducking my head slightly to avoid eye contact.

"Everyone deserves to feel safe and secure Carmen. I'm glad I could be that person for you." I can hear the smile forming on her lips.

I scoot a little closer to her so our legs are touching, and I look up at her again. Her blue eyes are hard to see yet still so beautiful. I'm so close to her face that our noses are touching. I expect her to scoot away, but instead I am met with her hand brushing the loose hair out of my face and behind my ear, sending chills down my spine.

I open my mouth to say something, but I can't seem to get any words out.

"I just..." I search her eyes but find myself lost in them, and completely abandon my train of thought.

"Yeah..?" She asks softly.

I can feel the tension in the hair hanging over the both of us. Her eyes fall on my lips for a fleeting moment, and she draws in a shaky breath before looking at me again.

I glance at her lips as well. Her soft pink lips aren't far from mine. I know I shouldn't do what I'm about to do, but the magnetic force between us is too hard to resist.

Without a word, I slowly lean in and my lips meet hers. She leans into my kiss and delicately places her hand on my face, and I wrap mine around her neck.

We pull away and leave our noses touching, and I feel my heart melt. That was the most gentle kiss I've ever experienced in my whole life.

Billie breathes out, ruffling her hand through my hair.

I feel her eyelashes flutter open against mine as we lay there in comfortable silence.

I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her closer.

"Are you okay?" Billie asks softly, still playing with my hair.

"Yeah, why?" I say.

"I just, I know that you're drunk. I don't want you to feel wrong about this in the morning." Billie says.

When she asks that, I feel tears forming in my eyes. I feel like someone truly cares about me and my wellbeing for the first time.

"I feel perfect." I sigh, leaning into her and resting my lips on her collarbone.

She wraps her arm around my back and traces stars on it lightly until I feel myself falling asleep.