Brighter Stars // Billie Eilish gxg

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Carmen's POV

I feel the car come to a stop, and hear the engine turn off.

My eyes flutter open and I untangle myself from a sleeping Billie's arms.

"It's 4:30 AM," Finneas says quietly, turning towards me.

"You and Billie should probably get some more sleep." He continues.

I turn to look at Billie, who is sitting up and rubbing her eyes.

Finneas slides out of the car and shuts the door.

"It wasn't a dream." Billie says, blinking slowly.

"What?" I ask.

"I woke up and you're here." She says.

I smile at her and take her hand in mine. We slide out of the car and Finneas leads us to the guest room in his house.

Billie climbs into bed and holds her arms open for me.

I climb in after her and slide into her embrace.

"How am I supposed to sleep." I say, staring at the ceiling.

"I'm surprised you aren't able to just close your eyes and fall asleep instantly after all of this." Billie says.

"I still feel so much fear." I say, taking a deep breath.

"You know I'm here when you're ready to talk." Billie says, glancing at me.

We lay there in silence for a second. I listen to her breathe.

"Everytime I close my eyes I see him." I whisper, fixing my eyes on the ceiling fan.

Billie readjusts a little, pulling me closer into her.

"Who?" She asks carefully.

"Webb." I can barely manage to whisper.

"Is he the one who kept you?" Billie whispers.

I try and control my breathing.

"Yeah." I say.

Billie and I lay there with each other in silence for a little longer.

I grab Billie's hand and lace my fingers with hers.

"It's hard to think about." I say.

Billie nods.

"It is."

-

I wake up to the sound of Billie's phone ringing. The morning light pours in from the window and glares directly into my eyes.

Billie gently nudges me and I sit up with her. She reaches for her phone on the nightstand and picks it up.

"This is Billie." She says into her phone.

She looks off into the distance, and drapes her arm over my legs.

"I can't this week, I'm sorry." Billie says.

She glances over at me.

"I'll revisit this all next week. Thank you." Billie says into her phone.

"Thank you, bye." Billie hangs the phone up and puts it down.

"Who was that?" I ask.

"Don't worry about it." She smiles.

"I know I'm like, traumatized right now but I really want to kiss you." I say, looking at her lips.

She laughs and pulls me closer to her.

There's a soft knock on the door.

"Come in!" Billie exclaims, looking at the door.