Bare (Royal Society #2) COMPLETED

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Ties finally Untied

Save me. I'm very familiar with that words, even the tone of begging. Because I was once in his situation. I was once chained and locked with my thoughts that was drowning me. I was once like him... begging to be saved.

The feeling of hopelessness and emptiness as the day goes by was increasing every minute. First it was just the palm of the bear, the next day, it's the bear. It was something inside you that deprives you of being free... happy.

It holds you back, chains you even, until you can no longer have the will to untie yourself from those thoughts.

And I don't want that for Izaac. I want him to live in a life he set for himself, not the life he settled with. 

"Izaac, I can't," I replied after the long silence.

Because he has to know that this battle is something he should win by himself. Hindi ako ang makakatulong sa kaniya para mapabuti ang kalooban niya. Hindi ako ang magpapawala ng hinanakit sa puso niya. Hindi ako at wala akong akong kakayahan palayain siya sa sakit na pumapatay sa dating siya dahil iisa lang ang pwede ang makasagip sa kaniya - ang sarili niya.

"I can't save you because that battle is meant for you. No can solve it but you. Do you understand?" He nodded and pulled me into hug.

Ramdam ko ang pagkawala niya ng buntong hininga sa pagyakap sa akin. I remained standing still, not moving an inch. 

Why am I holding myself back? I know to myself that it's Izaac for me and no one else. If he is not the one for me, then I will just live alone. I don't want to find someone to replace him in my life when I know no one can surpass him. That would be my biggest regret in my life, dragging someone else in my mess.

But it doesn't mean I won't be here for him. He knows that. I may not be able to save him from his misery but I will stay for him. I will stay while he faces his pain and embraces it. I will stay as he goes in the battle with himself. I will stay until he was able to overcome what hinders him to be happy.

That, I promise.

Nakasunod siya sa akin habang naglalakad kami pabalik sa bahay. He was looking around the area, examining the people around him and how they live. Hindi naman ganon kasama ang pamumuhay dito.

It was simple. There will no other words that can match the setting here. People would wake before the sun was up, workers will head to the field while the rest will clean their households. Then usually do their laundry. Before lunch time, they would fetch their families in the field to eat together. And wash the dishes and have a nap or they talk outside. Then dinner and finally, resting.

That was the routine in their everyday lives. We got news from the Royal and Imperial Families but they hardly care about it. Mostly because they were just focusing on their family and the people in here. 

My life here is normal. I don't get bored because I have Siah and the people in here. I don't know maybe because their whispers and stares look funny to me. I mean, they can talk about me all they can because it's their life, wala naman akong pake sa kanila.

It's just why would I care about someone else's life? May sarili naman akong buhay, mas magulo pa nga sa kanila. But then again, it's their opinion and choice. 

Papalapit pa lang kami sa bahay ay tanaw ko na si Mama na parang di mapakali. Isa pang nakakapagtaka bukod sa balisa niyang galaw ay ang mga tao sa paligid. They are from the Palace. It's either Izaac brought them or we have unexpected visitor.