I can't

Nine

*Kathleen POV*

I got up on stage and grabbed a mic, putting it in the mic stand. Oh yeah, haha I'm stupid. I hoped off the stage and ran to the back into Frank's office. I grab my guitar and run back out. I keep my acoustic guitar here because my mom doesn't like me having it at home. Something about it being "too loud" pfft what does she know.

I get back on stage and pull out my guitar from it's case. Setting the case down I walk over to the mic, glad I had turned it on before running to the back.

I pull the neck strap over my head and strum the guitar to make sure it's still in tune. But since I haven't been here and haven't used it in a while it's not. Of fucking course. "Sorry hah" I laugh awkwardly but everyone just smiles until I look over to Luke that is. He looks unamused and actually bored even. I suddenly feel nervous and not as confident. As soon as it comes though I push it away and continue.

As soon as I finish tuning, I strum to make sure. After I start the intro to the song, the cords of the song becoming easy to remember to where I don't even have to think about them. As I soon reach the first verse I become nervous again but instead of stoping like some people I use that as energy to the song.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you, Cause I know that you feel me somehow, You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't wanna go home right now. And all I can taste is this moment and all I can breath is your life Cause sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight" The first verse and they way my hands play the cords come and feel natural, as if I were meant to be doing this.

I start strumming the chorus and I start giving it my all, showing them, proving to them what I can do.

"And I don't want the whole world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am"
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As I play the last cords of the song and end it, I finally look up. They all sit there looking stunned even Skylar but she looks more proud. She sits there smiling as if she were a mother and her child had just graduated. I smile shyly and try to start packing up all the stuff I had pulled out.

"That.was.amazing!" Ashton screams out if no where. And soon everyone's screaming and they all run over to hug me. But out of the corner of my eye I see Luke who sits there smiling and looks...impressed? No that can't be. But I smirk anyways feeling accomplished.

"You should defiantly talk to our manager or something!" Calum says. "You're so talented they'd let you sign a contract straight away if you sang for them!" I blush and I want to do it but I push that thought aside. I couldn't possibly do it with...everything. After that I instantly deflate.

"No. I can't. I'm sorry I'll be right back." With that I walk off to go put everything away. Leaving them all baffled and probably down right confused.

I wish I could go for it. I mean that's my dream job but I just. I can't.

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There you guys go! A double update that I didn't plan on doing but did anyways. I'm sorry this is a short one (ok they're all short but small than normal shut up) but like I said wasn't planned. Anyways hope you enjoyed!! And you have or had, depending on where you live, a great day!

-Audrey;)