Hi, hello, happy 2021 and yeah you're not alone in this battle against somewhat now elaborated virus. But, no worries, don't worry too much, we're all gonna die, eventually.
So, update on my nihilistic life, my lil sis got tested positive for (you guessed it) covid after she visited Bali which I personally think is a fucking stupid idea. Yes, it's stupid to go on vacation while you're in the middle of pandemic which is now evolving to I don't fucking know how many varieties out there. I don't know how brutal the 'behind-the-scene' event to achieve 'yes, you might go to Bali with your friends, have fun' went, but, I'm pretty sure the parents sure brutally argue between letting her go or not, plus she's pushing them to get them to say yes, so this whole thing is fucking childish and unnecessary. As an almost 21 y.o. young adult, you SURE can think for the wisest decision, right. I mean, it's obvious and absolutely BIG NO to go to Bali, like, come on, think logically, (it hurts and hard but) kill your ego, and move on! You can go on vacation other time, not in the middle of pandemic. That's just childish and selfish.
Yeah move forward, she lives with me (for now and I hope it ended) and the next day when she woke up, she said something like 'I can't smell or taste anything' stuff and self-diagnosed that she's infected with the virus. I, luckily, don't feel anything different apart from carrying this 70 y.o. back pain. We both rushed to lab and did all the test. Apparently, it took at least 3 days if you took the PCR test. Fast forward 3 days later, yes it was positive. I'm lowkey pissed cause it's her egoistic decision that get her to this shithole, plus, she's living with me, so I got chance to be infected too. I need to gain money through shooting film project which require me to be fit and always on-set ready. Thank universe and my immune, I tested negative.
And now, this time, I really crave my personal space back. It's weird and uncomfortable to be always with someone together with you whenever you go, unless I'm working. Plus people around me are so insensitive. We are all group of individuals which mean each person has their own needs and tasks. I just think people are like 'oh you guys are sisters and family tho, so your door and space is always open for us, right. Fuck your needs, works, or routines, we're always welcome here cause we're family, we're part of you.' Well, no, it doesn't work like that. Yes, she might feel comfortable etc., but do you guys ever ask shit about how I feel or think about what's in their head, or just simply 'hi, I'd like to stay for while in your place, do you mind?'
Well, yes, I do mind. I don't feel comfortable.
