𝙊𝙐𝙍 𝘽𝙀𝘼𝙐𝙏𝙄𝙁𝙐𝙇 𝙇𝙊𝙑𝙀

Chapter 29

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Isha P.O.V

I brushed my hair back as I took out my diary from my shelf. My hands tightened around the edge of the diary as my heart was thumping loudly. This diary knows everything about me. It knows about my darkest secrets which no one knows.

I sat on my bed while clutching the diary against my chest. I bite my lips and opened the first page of my diary.

It was written.

Dear diary,

Another day passed. I am exhausted. Truly exhausted with everything going on in my life. I didn't know that becoming a mom is such a difficult task. A baby is growing inside my womb. And I already love my baby a lot.

It may be difficult for me to handle everything as a single mom. But I am trying my best. It's hard not to cry every single day when you know that you are going to fight alone. A different type of fear engraved in my mind. I am scared. I am scared that what if I will not be a good mom? I am scared that something wrong can happen in the next minute. I am just tired. I have so many mood swings and craving but I am trying my best to ignore them. I can't bother Abiha and Adeel all the damn time. They have their own life. I tried my best to not burden with my cravings and mood swings.

That's what life is. It takes a sudden change in our life. It leads you to unexpected.

But life also gave me a beautiful gift. I am going to have a baby. I am going to be a mother.

I feel alone sometimes. Especially when the pregnant women came with their husbands. The way their husband take care of them. It kills me knowing that no one is going to do that for me. I am going to fight this battle alone.

I am just hoping that I will win against myself. I hope I will never give up.

--Isha

I didn't realize when the tears drop fell on the paper. I wiped my tears away and held my head.

I shook my thoughts away and took a pen from a nightstand. I don't write regularly. I write it when I felt the need to let it all out.

Dear Diary,

Everything is the same again. Damn, why is it so hard to hate him? I always tried to hate him but he does something that makes my heart fall for him all over again. It's just my stupid heart who falls for a person who doesn't care for me. I swear I wanna slap him sometimes, but I know I can't. I just can't destroy his handsome face. Well, he will look funny with the black eye.

I still didn't get a chance to tell him about the Azaan. The situation makes everything more complicated. We haven't still talked properly. We didn't get a chance. He drops me at my apartment in the morning. We didn't utter a word during the whole ride. He was looking calm but I know it's the calm before the storm. I have a gut feeling that he knows about Azaan. But if he knows about Azaan, he would have taken him away from me. I told you he is a very complicated and unpredictable person.

Well, that's how my days are going. Nothing interesting aside from the fact that I was kidnapped and I run away from there. I asked Fahad about Azman and his psychopath brother but he shrugged the topic off.

Anyways, that's all for now.

-- Isha

I put aside my diary and took a deep breath. I run my fingers through my hair as I put my legs near my chest. My gaze went to the outside of the window. Climate was very calm and soothing.

The ringing of my phone startled me. It was Abiha. She went somewhere in the morning and she didn't come yet. I should have been worried about her but I am not. She is a very strong woman and she knows how to take care of herself.