Friends by chance lovers by choice

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We were staying in a hotel for the time being. My mom keep saying she has a plan but I knew she didn't. Billie probably had more of a plan then my mom did. My mom took no time putting me and Dani in schools tho.

3 Months later
TW: CUTTING AND EATING DISORDER

The first month was okay. I talked to Billie everyday. My mom found a little house right next to a school, so she made us walk.

But after that first month everything went down hill.

Billie stoped talking to me. I didn't know why. I thought maybe I said something or did something or something happened to her. Us not talking and I don't know why made me fall back into my old bad habits. Cutting and not eating.

Well I was eating so I didn't bring suspension to my sister but I would throw it up right after. I never would have thought the person that pulled me out of this dark place the first time would put me back in.

BILLIE POV
The first month with out Sierra was good for what it was. We talked everyday. I told her I started the first part of my plan which was to move out to L.A I had no money so I just lived in my car for the time being. She keep asking what my plan was but I refused to tell her.

I got a job at Jamba Juice. After that first month my phone broke so i didn't have a phone for a while I had to save up to get another one. So that means I wasn't able to talk to Sierra. I tried to DM her but her account said user not found. I was scared she blocked me until I used my co-worker's phone and it said the same thing.

At this point I was hoping and praying my plan would work so I could see her face and here her voice.

6 Months Later SIERRA POV
Tw: SAME AS LAST

The last month things have gotten better. The other months were the same damm routine.

Wake up eat breakfast,Throw it up,shower, school which I started failing they keep trying to hold me back but I would ace all the test so they were confused and let me move up, go home, 3 hour nap, wake up eat dinner, Throw it up Shower, get dressed for bed, cut one line to mark what day I was on of not talking to Billie, Then go to sleep for the night. Some nights I would stay up crying getting not sleep. Even when I would sleep I was still tired the amount of money I have spent on monster energy drinks. I would drink 4-5 a day for 6 months straight. You do the math.

But like I said the last month has been different there was a new girl in school we had a few class together. I was immediately attracted to her.

I finally realized it was because she kinda looked like billie. They had the same pail skin, pink plump lips and similar button nose. The big difference was there eyes and hair . Billie had beautiful ocean eyes, But the new girl had Emerald eyes and brown hair close enough I guess.

We started getting close when the teacher made us partners in a project we had to do.
I told her what happened between me and Billie. I even showed her my scars. I think she drugged me. I haven't showed or talked about my scars to anyone not even my own sister.

She told me to make the marks on my walls. She helped me get my wall up to date with my scars. Which means I was in nothing but my underwear and bra so we could have easy access to all my scars. When she was done counting the one on my stomach she moved her hand over my stomach and grabbed my waist pulling me into a kiss. It got heated fast one thing let to another and we'll you know

I was not proud of what I did. I don't want to do anything with anyone that wasn't Billie but she looked so much like her and I had my red LEDs on. Billie used to always fight with me about it she wanted red and I wanted multi color. She always won that.

Me and Claudia were still cool she understood that, that night was a mistake and I didn't want a relationship . She comforted me excepting my boundaries.

She kissed my head, we held hands in the hall and nights I really needed her she would come to my house and cuddled me.

I felt kinda bad tho because when she would do that I would just imagine Billie. I mean it wasn't bad the only thing I had to imagine differently was the hair and Eyes.

A/N this was really just a catch up chapter because I am lazy next one will be the same but Billie POV