My days at school were always the same day in and day out. Kacchan would bully me like I was still in middle school. I started training my quirk more outside of school because I wanted to learn the most about my quirk as fast as possible. I felt like I was behind everyone else because they've had their quirks since they were at least 4 and I;ve only had mine for a year now. My quirk comes with some drawbacks like breaking my bones, fatigue and exhaustion after exerting more power than I have.
While I walk in school people still give me looks sneering at my and turning their noses upwards and away from me. They talk behind my back wondering how I got int class 1-A and I question that too. A year ago I was going to jump off a roof but I decided to save my childhood bully and then I coincidentally met All Might. I still wonder if I'm worthy enough but I keep working to make myself worthy enough.
I still have depressive thoughts and while I put on a facade of always being happy I couldn't help but think that I don't fit in here. I don't feel comfortable in my body or my looks. I find myself comparing my looks and body to others and I feel inferior. I always felt like I wasn't worthy enough and bullying never helped me. My self esteem is at an all time low. I find myself smiling and talking different because that's how people view me. My voice, my smile, my eyes and gestures are all controlled to a T. I don't want people to learn about me because the last time I let someone get close to me they took advantage of my feelings and left me in the dirt.
I can't express the troubles i'm having with my quirk because then it'll be weird seeing as others had so much more time to experiment with their quirk and i'm still experimenting with mine trying to find my limits. Now I find myself questioning why I wanted to become a hero. For people to look up to me? To be famous? To get money? To save people? I don't know why I want to be a hero. I just want to be at peace and live my life. I never knew the emotional dread of having a quirk. I find myself crying myself to sleep and waking up with swollen eyes. My eyesight suffers more by the day but I can't afford new glasses and I can't get a job right now since i'm studying all the time. I gave up a lot to become a hero but i'm losing sight of the goal. I don't know what's real or what isn't and i'm starting to think that it wasn't worth taking on this quirk .
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