Serial Lover

Chapter 44

~Tore Up~

LANI POV

My heart stopped for a second. He can't be serious. "Your lying," I yell while sobbing.

"I never fucking lie," he yells back.

NO no-no-no. Please let him be playing. But he cant be. He's right he never lies. There hasn't been one time I caught Kilo in a lie. So this whole him wanting to kill me the thing wasn't because I pissed him off but because of my father. He wanted to kill me the day he met me.

"I wanted you fucking dead from the day I met you" he spat making me cry even more. "But now I don't, so be grateful for the way I'm acting, be grateful that I'm willing to protect the daughter of the man who killed my whole fucking family"

"You sick bastard" I yelled. "What he did wasn't my fault, I didn't even know he fucking existed and you thought I should be punished," I said laughing a little."You can't be serious right now, this whole fantasy about you killing me you have officially done it" I back up. "You have broken me Kilo. I'm DONE" I start crying again. "This is what you wanted right?" my voice was broken.

He stares at me and I could see guilt and regret in his eyes. I can't believe he wanted to kill me. But then he didn't. I just want to be let go.

My face was wet and red. My eyes hurt and my throat burned. I felt sick and my head was spinning. I really let myself catch feelings for this monster. This whole time he wanted to kill me. It was all in front of me. I thought he just wanted me dead because I pissed him off not because of something my sick father did. I understand how he feels. His cousin killed my, mother. But I'm not blaming him, am I? No, I didn't say shit about it because it isn't Kilo's fault. So why would I sit here and blame him for something he didn't do.

"I'm sorry," he says and I start laughing.

"Sorry ain't gonna cut it this time babe," I said trying to walk past him. His hands stop me. I push him away and walk out of the room. I run downstairs and both Riccardo and Francis were still there. I grabbed my coat and walked to the elevator.

"Kehlani" I hear him call my name. But I walk inside. I could see him running towards the door but it closed just in time.

I sighed in relief and pressed the first-floor button.

I decided to walk. I know every time I do that something happens but I didn't care. I wanted to go to the place where this all begin. I don't even know what I was doing walking in a rich people's neighborhood that day. It was just twenty minutes from Kilos penthouse.

I walk around. Gosh if only I wasn't walking in this park that day. Or if only I didn't come to New York. I should have gone to Chicago or some small town in an unpopular state. Coming to New York was probably one of the worst decisions I ever made.

Just a couple of months ago I was happy. I had finally got away from Gilbert and I was ready to start a new life here in this big beautiful city. And right as things are good. Men started chasing me in dark and Kilo almost runs me over with his car. He then saves me and hires me the next day. Now that I think about it he probably got me fired from my job. He has the power to.

It's not like I could run away. I have a family. It would take them days to get to New York. I would need help and I'm not leaving without them. But I'm done running. It's time he lets me go. All he has to do is sign the papers. Just sign them and let me be. I understand he's trying to protect me but I can't trust him. He wanted to kill me for a crazy reason. Now he thinks I'm going to put my life in his hands. Have then man who wanted me dead now trying to protect me. NO. I want out. I want to travel the world and go to college. Not this. Being threatened by my husband who doesn't know what he wants.