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[ IX ] promise me

Shuhua

"Now that you're awake, let's talk."

Soojin's intense gaze was piercing into me. If looks could kill, I would've been dead a thousand times already. However, there's something in my head that's bugging me, the thing is, I can't remember what it is.

"Tell me, do you remember anything that happened? Any recent events?" She asked me.

Am I supposed to remember something? Everything is a little hazy. I shook my head and she let out a sigh. She walked up to me and our faces were dangerously close. Her gorgeous brown eyes were staring into mine and my heart was beating so fast.

"How about now?" She said.

Ma'am my heart is going to explode here.

Then, her irises turned into amber with hints of red in it. Soon enough, everything flashed into my brain.

I saw myself, slashing a giant wound in my stomach. The faint memory of her glowing red and striking me hard until I was being chocked by her hands... It was all coming back to me now.

I didn't notice until I felt water drop onto my hand. Streams of tears were forming as mixed emotions were swirling up inside me.

"You're not scared?" She asked.

"N-no, I-... I don't know." I told her truthfully.

To be honest, I have no clue on what to feel.

She brought her hands to my cheeks and I was startled by her action. The flashes of her from the past memories were playing like a broken record.

"Shushu, it's okay. I'm not going to hurt you." She assured me as she brushed the tears under my eyes.

I glanced at her and she let go and went back to her chair. She seductively crossed her legs and rested her arms against the armrest and leaned her head on her right hand.

Okay, please don't look at me like that.

"So now that you remember what happened, don't you have any questions for me?" She questioned, "I'll answer honestly as possible."

What the hell? Her personality switched.

Anyways... she's actually giving me this kind of freedom? I knew there was always something mysterious about her. She's just too beautiful to be called "human". Maybe I should use this chance since I'd probably never get another opportunity.

"Uhh so... What exactly are you? Are you human? An alien?" I asked her.

"To be exact, I'm an "ethereal". It's like a cursed angel. We aren't pure enough to be a holy angel so we're classified as ethereals." She explained.

"W-wow, to think that there's more than just humans lurking around..." I mumbled, "how about your eyes? Do you have some sort of powers?"

"My eyes are a part of my ability. They enhance my strength and agility ten times more." She replied.

"Uh, are there more of your kind out there?"

"Yes, in fact we'll meet them after we're done here."

I wanted to ask her more about herself but I need to ask her the real questions. But the thing is, do I really want to know? What if I ask her something too personal?

"I can hear what you're thinking of right now. So you have some pretty serious things to ask me, don't you?"

Shit, she can hear my thoughts?

"Y-yes." I gulped.

She leaned back into her chair and waited for me to talk. Her gaze was absolutely suffocating me. I don't want this chance to slip up, but I really need to know.

"What happened to me? Why were you about t-to kill me?"

I could tell by her face that she was a little surprised about the abrupt question. She looked down and sighed.

"You're soul isn't human Shu. There's another person living inside you." She said, trying to be as calm as possible.

"W-what?" I stuttered.

"That evening, you're body was being possessed by some entity—a demon, rather. I had no choice but to try and kill it. Then, I was told that if I were to kill the demon, you'll get killed as well." She added.

I don't know how to feel. Knowing that I have a devil inside me makes it feel like it was never my body to begin with. The voices in my head, the contradicting, wasn't just my own head?

"You... s-should've just killed me." I told her.

"W-what? I would never do that." She spoke gently.

She has to be lying. She would kill me because of what I truly am without any hesitation at all.

"Why not! Can't you see that I'm a monster?!" I yelled at her, "I shouldn't be standing right now!"

Everything... it's starting to make a little more sense.

"I need to die! The world will be better off without me. Soojin please, just do it." I fell to my knees and pleaded.

"I'm not going to kill you. I can't do it."

Soojin

Seeing someone begging me to kill them is something I never thought I'd see. But seeing her on the floor, looking broken and hurt is tearing me up inside. I knelt down to her level and raised her head to look at me.

"Why? You have the power to do it. I am a demon after all, so what's the difference?" She asked me, losing her sanity.

She's not a demon. She's a human that deserves to live.

I pushed her away harshly. "Stop it! Don't ever say that you're a demon! You're a human Shu, you're a human that needs to live."

"Look at me, I can't kill you. Even if I could there would be not point. I'm doing everything I can for you to survive, so the least thing you can do is to stop this." I told her sincerely.

She was looking at me with her same broken expression. Her eyes were swelling from all the crying. When will she finally understand that I'm going to fulfill her request?

"I've made a promise to the gods that I won't hurt you. You were involved in a war that doesn't concern you, and it's my fault. I need you to live. I need you to live a life without sadness, without pain. So please, come out of the darkness." I looked at her with a miraculous sense of empathy that I didn't know I had.

Her eyes were slowly starting to find their humanity again. I'd never thought I'd say this but for once, I'm beginning to feel emotions for mortals.

Suddenly, she pulled me into a hug and squeezed me tightly, holding onto me for dear life. I stroked her back for a few minutes until she calmed down and her sobs subsided.

We pulled away but I brought her head and rested it against mine. I could feel her heart race and her body being flustered by the sudden action. I closed my eyes and thought of the words that I needed to say to her.

"Promise me that you'll live a happier life, okay?" I asked and she nodded, wiping her last bit of tears away.

"Good. Because I promise my life that I will protect you."

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wow okay this just got pretty sad... i promise you that the next chapter won't be filled with sadness.