Love him, Definitely... [Under Revision]

Chapter 22

"So bakit gusto mo kong kausapin."
Basag ko sa aming katahimikan atsaka napalunok.

Nasa prayer garden kami ngayon, kung saan nakalugar sa pinaka sentro ng buong ospital.

This place...it's quite a sanctuary amidst all of the things that is happening right now.

Napatingin ako sa kalangitan na puno ng bituin habang pinapakiramdaman siya sa likod ko. Despite the quite night I can hear the loud thumping of my heart waiting for his answer. The wind blew pass by then I hugged & console myself from the cold wind of the night.

Naramdaman kong pumantay ito saakin. "Ijiel..." I can feel him slowly reaching my left shoulder, napapikit nalang ako ng tuluyang mahawakan niya ako.

"I-Im so sorry Ijiel..." He broke down tearing up.

Napalunok nalang ako, hindi ko siya kayang tignan. Not after what I did, not like this.

"I can't imagine what you're going through right now." He sniffed.

My lips quivered, hindi na ng dahil sa lamig pero sa pagpipigil ng iyak.
Binitawan nito ang balikat ko.

He puts his hands on his back "To lessen the burden.." he took a step closer to me.

"Ijiel...gusto kong malaman mo na hindi ako galit." Yumambi ito at bahagya binunggo ang balikat ko, pampalubag loob, epektibo naman.

"I can't be mad and I will never be mad at you."

Inabot niya ang ang kaliwang kamay ko, he held it dearly. Truly, his hand gave me warmth and comfort as it always was.

"That was a brave thing you did. I know it took a lot of courage to do.
At 'naiintindihan' kita, Ijiel..."
His voice croaked and then he chuckled.

Hearing that from him, I can't help it but just to tear up.

"Ikaw naman kasi...bakit ba kasi ako. Nakakainis ka."
He shook my hand and whined.
Mas lalo akong yumambi kesa sakanya.

Pero hindi na magkamayaw ang iyak ko, I was just silently crying.
He was stroking his thumb on my hand, masyado akong nanghihina sa mga haplos niya. I can't hold it properly, it feels not right anymore.

Sinubukan kong bitiwan ito at tumalikod, but he held me tighter. Not letting me go. Hinabol niya ng tingin ang mga mata kong sinusubukan siyang iwasan.
I really wanted to leave, gusto kong tumakbo mula sakanya. Everything is just so overbearing to face right now, especially his f*ucking presence.

"F-Font..." I was helplessly sobbing.

Trying my best not to meet his soft begging gaze.

"Ijiel please...ayaw kong ganito tayo..." Now with both hands he held me. Pilit niya paring hinahabol ang mga mata ko, matignan lang siya.