Redemption

The gentle beast

She slowly comes out still shaking with fear. She finally steps out into the light, as my eyes lay upon her my heart starts beating like crazy, my hands start shacking and I am short of breath.
"I have never seen such sheer beauty before, her skin glitters under the moon light. Her eyes shine brighter than the stars in the sky. Even when she's afraid she looks so beautiful, I just want her to stop shaking and feel safe. She looks so pure and innocent, what do I say to her, come on think if something" I think to myself.
"Why is he staring at me like that? Why is he standing idly? Is there something on my face? Hey shadow man? Why are you looking at me like that?" asks Jasmine.
"Did you just call me shadow man?" I ask with a loud voice. "Yes I did, I'm sorry please don't hurt me." Replies Jasmine. "I'm not going to hurt you, don't be afraid. But I have a name you know, I'm not the shadow man why would you even call me that?"
"I'm sorry, shadow ma.. I'm sorry didn't mean to call you that" she says while trembling, "stop saying sorry and I'm not the shadow man. Okay sorry for shouting, my name is Simeon, what's yours?" "I'm Jasmine" she replies.
As she finishes saying her name, her heart starts beating real fast and her eyes roll up her head and she starts falling to the ground. I rush up with super speed and catch her before she hits the ground. "What should I do? Think think you stupid fool" I think to myself.
But then I smell the blood on open wounds on her knees and palms, I hear her heart beating, I see the throbbing vein on her neck. My fangs come out and I almost lose control. "No not her, I can't do this to her. I must control myself" I say to myself.
"I will not hurt a hair on her head, I will stand guard and protect her while she rests, and her name is jasmine that's what she said. I must find a place with a bed for her to rest. I can't take her to my place for it's a mess. Look at her, she seems so peaceful with her eyes closed. I have to tend to her wounds and get her clean clothes." I say to myself while holding her body close.
I quickly rush her to the nearest clean home I own. I lay her on the couch and tend to her wounds. I still can't seem to stop taking peaks at her beautiful face. I dress up her wounds and take her to bed. I leave her my t-shirt and sweatpants for her to wear when she comes to. I close the door and let her rest.
I then sit in the living room confused and happy, why do I feel this way? Why aren't I grumpy? It's like she has taken away my pain with one glance of her perfect eyes, I feel my heart grow three times its size. Is this love I feel? Or have I been cursed or maybe I'm ill?
This must be infatuation, yes it's the only explanation. A monster like me can't love, I only bring damnation. But what if I do? Can this go through? Of course it can't, she can't love a monster like you. Yes I'm a monster that is true, an angel like her loving me? What was I thinking damn I am just a fool.
The war between my heart and mind wage on all night, but I still can't get her out of my mind. Dawn breaks and I am still arguing with myself. Oh I almost forgot there is no food in this house. I haven't used it in a while.
I head out to find her some food. I hope she doesn't wake up while I'm away. I don't want her to leave in my absence, I'd like her to stay. I rush to the store and buy whatever I think she'd like. From meat and veggies to cereals, yoghurt and eggs.
I almost left the store without paying, oh damn been a while since I used money do you accept sheerings? Of course you don't. I use my credit card instead.
I hurry back home scared id find her gone. I get to the house, " thank God I can still heart her heartbeat" I say in relief. I put the groceries in the kitchen. I take a bath and change my clothes.
I take a step outside, and it finally hits me. I had been so distracted I didn't even see. It's my first time walking in the sun in a hundred years. This brings back memories of the old days. I take a sit on the porch and take in the sun's rays. "But this came at a cost" to myself I say. "He had to die for me to be here today. I hope killing me will bring you joy were his last worlds before I put him beneath the clay. I'm sorry Jordan where you are" with tears in my eyes, hoping he can hear what I say. I sit there for a while and think about the past while I ask in the sun like it's a must.
I slowly open my eyes, I don't really remember what happened last night. "Where am i?" I ask myself. " The shadow man I mean Simeon did he bring me here while I was out cold? I look around, am in a room all alone. It looks like he didn't do anything to me apart tending to my wounds
"He is a strange young man, I remember taking a glimpse at him right before I passed out, and he was staring at me" I say to myself. "But there is something about him that's different, I saw his eyes they were a dark brownish and he had thick looking curled black hair with pink lips and a baby face." I keep on blabbing.
I stand up and take a look around the room. I see a note on top of some clothes and it says "these are the only clothes I could find, when you awaken take a bath, cover up your wound with these bandied and come down stairs." He must left this for me.
I go to the bathroom and take, tend to my wounds and slowly make my way down the stair case. I'm still afraid because this is a strangers house, maybe he might hurt me.
I get to the living room and find no one is there, "where could he be" I wonder. I check the kitchen and the dining room but I still don't find him. I go back to the living room and take a sit. Right in front of me I see a picture of him set beside the television set.
He looked so handsome wearing a tux, looks like he works out as well.
Seeing as I am alone, start to roam around the house to feed my curiosity. I check every room that's down stars but I feel lazy going back upstairs seeing as my knees are cut and are hurting.
I get back to the living room and sit down, my stomach growls because I'm so very hungry. "It would be weird and impolite if he found me messing around the kitchen trying to make some food, let me wait till he gets back" I say to myself.
"Might as well turn on the TV while I wait for him. What did he say his name was? Simon? No that's not it, Simeon? Yeah that's it Simeon. What an odd name for a young man." I say to myself while I reach for the remote. But then I accidentally hit a glass decoration and it falls to the ground and it breaks. "Oh no his going to shout at me" I say to myself while frightened.
"What's that, I ask myself. Sounds like something broke in the house. I hope she's alright." I say to myself as I rush into the house.
There she is, seems like she just broke one of the deco. She must be still shaken up from last night. "I'm so sorry, please don't shout at me shadow man" she says while crying. "I told you my name is not shadow man!" I say in a loud voice. "I'm sorry Simeon, I'm so sorry" she says while looking at me.
"She remembers my name, look at her, she looks more beautiful during the day. Those hypnotic brown eyes, those perky looking lips, that long curly black hair and her perfect skin tone." I say to myself.
I'm sorry for shouting and please don't cry, I won't hurt you. Wipe those tears okay. Oh and would you like something to eat? "Yes I would," she answers underneath her breath.
I cook up something for her to eat and she does so with haste. "Pardon me for asking but how long will you be staying here?" I asked. "I will go as soon as possible if that's what you want me to" she answered. "No don't take it like that, I'd like you to stay as long as you want, do you have anywhere to go?." I replied "yes I mean no I don't have anywhere to go" she said. "Well then you can keep staying here, I don't mind having you around" I added on.
Months went by and things started to become clear, I was falling for her and I always wanted her to be near. I tried my best to hide my feelings but little by little she stole my heart. I was afraid of what shed think of me, I am a monster and shed leave if the real she could see.
I love the way he looks at me with those dark brown eyes. It feels like he can look into my soul. He stands guard each time I sleep, he is like my very own knight. I bet he can protect me in any fight.
As time went by we grew closer and closer, till the day finally came when we couldn't keep part from each other. And finally we became one.
This became the happiest time of our lives, a creature from the depth of hell finding love in the arms of a being of pure heart and soul. She made me feel loved and whole. Each time we spent together our love would grow, and like a river our love would flow.
There came a day when I fell asleep on the couch and he carried me in his strong muscular arms. He took me upstairs and laid me on the bed. I thought she was asleep but she grabbed my hand and told me not to go. He sat down next to me while looking directly into my eyes. She came close to me and I moved close to her. Then we both leaned in and kissed.
He grabbed me by my waist and put me on his laps. She wrapped her hands around my neck and her legs around me. He slowly took off my dress, she took off my shirt. He then put me on the bed and kissed me all over.
Before I knew it our clothes were on the floor and we were making love. For the first time in over a hundred years I felt like I was human. Finally my life had meaning and purpose.
I finally had someone to love, I was no longer along. I know he won't disappoint me like that last guy, he is different. I can feel his love with each kiss he gives me.
Two opposites found what they needed in each other. Love brought them together. Sounds like a happy ending to a tale if despair and pain. But the worst is yet to come. The story continues.
Two years go by since the day I first met jasmine. It has been nothing but love and happiness for I am hers and she is mine. I have not killed anyone in all the time I've been with her. Everything seems to be going amazing so far.
My time with him has been nothing short of a fairy-tale. He saved me from feeling alone and unwanted, before him my life was truly hell. I feel safe when I'm around him, he gave life to the flickering light that was about to dim.
It went one like this for the next year and a half. We gave love and love we received. But my heart wasn't at ease for her I deceived. I was sure the day she knew who I really was she would leave and never look back.
For now I better forget about that. Well cross that bridge when the time comes.