you make me a complete mess
manage my body
soul and mind
take control over
my every move and breath
and always see me for what I am
the queasy feeling in my stomach
the pounding in my head
the only thoughts in my mind
are consuming me instead-
the overtaking temptation to love you
my forehead covered in cold sweats
my body shakes beyond control
the endless aching in my bones
as you take and drain my very soul
you never let me sleep
can not put my mind at ease
trapped in a repetitive cycle
of wants and needs
it is slowly unraveling inside of me
there are many things within
an entrapment of feelings
and the purpose to be complete
the urge is overwhelming
devastatingly daunting
I feel I can no longer resist
this temptation
I feel I can no longer wait
for salvation
letting go does not seem
to be an option
therefore I sit painfully
letting it all devour me
saturating in this sunlight
a vibrant relief for the fatigue
that overdose brings
you may be getting clean
but I never will
all I want is your pleasure,
but hunting for you is pain
and yes
I may be obsessed
I may distort reality
but my racing heartbeat
the release of euphoria
dopamine and oxytocin
adrenaline and vasopressin
show me how the drug in me is you
YOU ARE READING
hopeless devotion
Poetry[poetry | prose] incapable of redemption or improvement; lack of control, responsibility, and reasoning a collection of blind love thoughts and the irrational faithfulness that comes within © all rights reserved | desantiagooox
