Lay with me

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New chapter!! I tried to describe everything as clearly as possible. I hope that helps!

A bit later that day..

I'm standing in front of my house. I feel my heart beating faster than ever. What if my teacher called mom? I can't just walk in there like nothing happened.

My house is really simple. It has two floors and a big brown roof. House itself is topaz color with dark brown doors. There is a little carpet with writing on it. It says "Welcome dear guests". I think it's sweet that it says so. The house doesn't have a lot windows. In the front  you can see only three: one next to the door and two on the second floor.

We have a small garden with roses in it next to the house to the left. It looks really good and holds a lot of memories. I remember planting seeds with my mom. It was a lot of fun. She wore this overall with a big pocket in the front. She kept a pair of secateurs in there. It looked really funny, not going to lie. I was in shorts and a big white t-shirt. What a good day.. I remember my dad's face when he came back from work and saw what we did. He looked happier than ever. He hugged us both and we just stood there for a moment. These moments just stay in your head.

But now, I'm standing here, with a backpack in my hand and don't want to come inside. I started walking slowly to the door and turned the handle so door opened. I saw my mom sitting on a chair right next to the opened door. We usually use it to tie our shoes or just wait for someone.

She looks really disappointed, but not angry at all. She is in this long dress with flowers on it. Mom also have yellow gloves on for cleaning. She must have cleaned before I came back.

I stared at her for a bit and she finally opened her mouth to speak.

"Head teacher called" my heart stopped. I think I even stopped breathing. "How could you? You know, one mistake and you're out of there. Do you ever think before doing something?"

She talked really quiet, which was weird. I just noticed, that her eyes were watery, which means that she just cried or will cry at any moment now.

"We don't have enough money for university, you know that. If they will throw you out, it's over" she started talking again. "After everything we have done for you, you still don't feel any responsibilities? When will you grow up?''

"I'm sorry" these are the only words in my head right now. I don't know what to say anymore, so I won't make it worse.

"I know, baby. We will try to fix it. Your math teacher and head teacher will come here to talk to us around 6pm. Make sure to be here" mom said and started walking to kitchen.

I took of my shoes and walked to my room. My room isn't really big, but I kind of love it. I decorated it myself. It has a small bed next to the wall, also, a desk right in front when you walk in my room. My walls are beige color. On the right side there is a big black and white tapestry. It's kind of trippy. Near the tapestry are some pictures in black and white with my friends.

I don't have a lot of friends. Actually, I don't have friends at all. I used to have a lot of friends, but then I started being me and they didn't like it. I'm holding these pictures to remember good times. I sometimes look at them just to feel happiness that I used to feel.

All around the top of my walls are led lights, they're in star shape. It looks really cool, I'm proud that they're here.

I sat on my bed and started to really think about this situation. Lots of different thoughts are flying in my head. What should I do now?