Rabid Cur (Kylo Ren x Reader)

Chapter Twelve

WARNING: Sexual harassment and near rape.

The bright white overhead lights woke you up with a vengeance. You were tired, truly just beaten down from the past few weeks and the overbearing lights awakening you from your much needed slumber was the last straw. If only there was a way to rig the timer on them so you could get up whenever you'd like instead.

It took a hundred small things before you truly got fed up and that was what was happening now.

Annoyed, you slid out of bed and went straight to your bathroom to change. You hurled your sleep clothes off and practically threw your uniform on, just like clockwork. With every second that was passing, you were just growing more and more agitated as you had too much time to think about the whirlwind of what you had to go through recently.

'Do I deserve any of this?'

To have a man full of hatred, who you hated, die in front of you and then have to save? Destroying your morals and emotionally breaking you, just for you to end up liking him?

To have your brother shooting daggers at you every time you entered a room? To be stuck fucking and being harassed by a gross and horrifying man just to feel safe?

And Anya getting mad at you over nothing was just the cherry on top.

You styled your hair as neatly as possible but were rushing too much to spend a lot of time on it. Not that it mattered anyways, it's not like anyone cared enough to look at something like that. As long as it was out of the way.

You were ready to make an impact today, to do anything that could let you feel back in control. The feeling of seeing your own life in the hands of others was one that you were not fond of. You had this big stupid role now, so better make use of it.

You left your quarters on time and were met with Eli standing outside the door.

"Good morning, I did not expect to see you so soon Eli," you commented while continuing your way down to your station.

"I'm sorry miss, I know it's been a little while but I'm still ordered to protect you," he responded, trying to keep up with your fast pace.

"Of course Eli, I'm not blaming you. Just a bit of a startle is all. Is there any news for me?" you asked as you rounded the corner at the TIE fighters bay, your marker for everything on the huge ass ship.

"Yes, the Supreme Leader is scheduled to speak with you and your colleagues about the mission you came back from."

You froze, feet feeling like they were stuck in mud.

The sudden feeling of quicksand below you, wanting to suck you in forever. You had never met with the Supreme Leader so personally, and were scared shitless. Beyond that, you had to share what actually happened on your mission. Between Kylo almost dying and losing Armitage, you didn't know what to even tell Snoke. Technically, you did find Li'an but you could never reveal that.

You took a second to think about things and began to walk again.

"That's fine, please advise me as to when and then you can escort me there," you said calmly as you arrived at your station. He gave a slight head nod and went off to the rest of his duty for the day. You were glad to be alone for a moment but were already being disrupted.

"Good morning Miss General Hux. This is a stack of files you need to complete by midday. Oh and before you meet with the Supreme Leader, Master Ren is requesting to speak with you," Vaeda said as she sat down the stack of papers. "Phasma needs to see you as well."