Poetry Collection: A heart is meant to love even if it breaks

The real me

I thought I was smart

I said who can go far in life

And who's a fool

With nothing to hold

Maybe I'm the clown

Lying about myself the whole time

Feeling like I'm the queen with the crown

But really am the impostor

I'm no better than those

I hated before

Before I looked in the mirror

And saw the real me...

I don't hate myself

I just hate that I can't change

What is wrong with me?

Why am I so desperately wrecked

I want to hate me for my lazyness

I want to hate me cause I'm a mess

Just want somebody to blame for

Though it has nothing to do with them at all

Just want somebody to be angry at

But I couldn't forget

The hurt faces when

I'd lose control

I don't hate myself

I just hate that I can't change

What is wrong with me?

Why am I so desperately wrecked

Beating my reflection

Don't know what I'm fighting for?

It's all for nothing

But I can't stop blaming myself

Where's the sin?

Are we supposed to suffer all life long?

Forget what's right

And what is wrong

I thought I was smart

I said who can go far in life

Maybe I'm the fool

With nothing to hold