Why did it have to be me?

Chapter 19

London's POV
I woke up today and felt like shit. I barely got any sleep last night and I feel like someone is sitting on my stomach. "Addie you are killing mommy." I sad rubbing my stomach. I got out of bed and made me a blueberry tea. It always helps calm me down. I went to the tv and put on a movie and scrolled through my phone. I came across a video of the boys and their show last night. I just smiled they all looked so happy. Niall texted me this morning and said they had a show at 5 pm and than 5 interviews tomorrow and than he would be back. All I said was ok I mean I'm still apart about yesterday. I shouldn't be but I am.

I heard a knock on the door and I knew who it was. I texted my mom and Mike and asked if they wanted to come over. "Hey honey." My mom said. "Hi mom." I said. "How are you feeling?" Mike asked. "Not all that great." I said. My mom frowned and sat next to me. "Have you talked to your sister?" My mom asked. "Yeah last night she said they left for Disney at 3 in the morning." I said. "You and your sister need to make up I mean I remember when you guys where like rocks." My mom said. "She apologized but than she came over last week and seen Niall and walked out." I said. "She'll come around." Mike said. I gave him a smile.

"When does Niall come back?" Mike asked. " Friday." I said. "Do you miss him." My mom asked. I shrugged. "What happened?" She asked. "I don't really wanna talk about it I don't wanna get all worked up." I said. "That's okay." My mom said as she rubbed my back. "Welcome to real life honey." My mom said and hugged me. I couldn't hold it in any longer I broke down. "Hey, Lon talk to me." My mom said as she wiped away my tears. "H-he said t-that I c-can't love him m-mom. H-how d-o I n-not love him?" I choked out.

"Honey look at me." She said. "I'm sure he has his reasons but you should be able to express your feeling and humid he has a problem with that than he isn't the one." My mom said with a smile. I forced a smile. "Don't let it get to you please it's not worth it." My mom said. I nodded and pulled out of the hug. I want to believe my mom. I want to walk away from this because maybe she's right. Maybe Niall isn't worth it.

"Do you guys want to go out to eat?" Mike asked. "Sure that sounds fun." I said. " Let's go to The Palm." My mom said as we pulled out of the driveway. This will be good.I need to get Niall off my mind. We got seated and ordered our food. My stomach was turning I hope I don't get sick. My cramps were getting worse but I just ignored them. My mom and Mike always knew how to make me laugh and cheer me up. Although I don't think of Mike as a dad he's always been there for me.

"London you don't look all that great." Mike said. "Lon what's wrong?" My mom asked. "I'm fine." I lied. "Honey no your not let's head home." Me mom said than led me out to the car. "Mom I'm fine." I said. "London don't lie to me." My mom said. "I'm just having cramps that's all." I said. "They might be Braxton Hicks honey you are getting close to the due date." My mom said. I nodded.

"Go to your room and get some rest." My mom said as we walked into my apartment. I was walking to my room when I felt something running down my leg. No this can't happen not right now. "Mom!" I yelled from my room. "What's wrong." My mom came running. "My w-water broke." I said. "Oh my ok let's get you to the hospital." My mom said. "No! No I can't Niall isn't here." I said. "Honey no matter what she is going to come weather he is here or not you can't wait." She said. I can't do this without him. He can't miss this. "Mike Here is Nialls number can you call him?" I asked handing Mike a slip of paper. "Of course." He said with a smile. "Alright let's go." My mom said.

"Hello how can I help you two?" The resectionist asked. "Yes my daughter is in labor." My mom said. A niece took us to a privet room and got me a little more comfortable. "How long is this going to take?" I asked. "Well sometimes only a couple hours and other time a few days." She said than walked out of the room. "You'll be okay." My mom said. I heard a knock on the door than my doctor came in. "Hello guys how you you feeling London?" Doctor May asked. "A lot better now." I said with a smile. "How long has this been going on?" She asked. "I don't really think I have had contractions but if I have I only had like 2." I said.

"That's great that mean you aren't that far along." She said. "Yeah I was right your only 1 cm dilated your going to be here for a while." She said. "Good that way Niall can make it." I said with a smile. "No dad?" Doctor May asked. "He's in New Mexico." I said. "Well hopefully he will make it." She said with a smile than walked out of the room. "How are you really feeling?" My mom asked. "I'm great I feel a lot better mom I promise." I said with a smile. "Good my mom said. "Niall didn't answer but I left him a voicemail." Mike said as he walked in. "Thank you." I said.

"Honey we are going to be here for a while why don't you get some rest." Mike said. I gave him a smile and closed my eyes. I was finding it hard to fall asleep. I was to worried that Niall wasn't going to make it and I had 50 things plugged into me. Sooner or later I did end up falling asleep. I just hope Niall makes it I will never forgive myself.

Hi! Sorry about the chapters being short I just don't know how to write them. Anyways I hope you like it.