𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 | 𝚜.𝚛

𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒔...

listen to this song while reading...
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he was so beautiful
god... his hair fanned over his face
it made him look angelic
laying on his side facing me
while I did the same to him
it was weird, watching him sleep
but I couldn't help it
the night was eventful
it wasn't just sex anymore
it was love
full of it ...
he was everything to me
I was everything to him
his chest littered with marks from me
his back red from my scratches
his lips puckered in his sleep
his long lashes
his hair a mess from my hands going through while he fucked me senseless
oh how I tugged on it like my life depended on it
he fucked me so hard
I couldn't walk properly to the bathroom after
he was so good
he felt good
he made me feel good
and I him
he loved me
and I him
he told me
and I told him
we were more than friends
we were lovers
we were one
we were everything to each other
we were inseparable
we could never go a day without being by the other side
we were protective over each other
stolen touches
stolen kisses
secret quickies in the bathroom
holding hands under the table
playing footies
it was bliss
we loved
and loved
and loved
loved
love
lov
lo
l
till he ruined it all...

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"I love you"

"loved... you loved me"

"no... I love you" choking on words, he was about to cry, it was evident in his voice

"Stop playing games with me Reid" I didn't dare say his name

he loved the way I said his name, he loved my voice... he used to make me read to him because my voice was so soothing to him

"i-i swear-... I'm not" he was whimpering at this point, his voice cracking, eyes glossing over

my heart ever so slightly breaking
it put me too at tears
my eyes glossing over too

we sat in silence

staring at each other

the barista never once interrupting us in our moment

"was I ever good enough for you?" I hesitantly said

I was hit with silence for 10 seconds max

"yes, you are... you are enough more than enough"

"well that's not good enough"

"y/n" he whispered under his breath

"no... Reid, I know why I'm here, I know why you brought it upon yourself to have us sit here in a public place to talk"

he just looked at me, holding back tears

and I continued

"you want me to give you another chance... you want me to give us another chance- it not going to happen though. Reid, you fucked up and twice, you fucked up twice. you took advantage of me, you stopped showing you loved me when you... when you started talking to her, you stopped showing you loved me when you started playing around with Jenniffer- who may I remind you is married for christ sake and have kids... she's taking advantage of you and in that case, your keeping yourself occupied to forget me, to stop loving me, to have nothing with me, to have us never happening ever again" I stated calmly, staring him in his doe looking eyes