Is This Real?

Chapter 20

Karl POV:

After the Quackity situation happened Karl has been alone for days. No one had come to see him like usual, no one even had asked about him. Nothing and no one seemed to care that he had been gone.

Karl had been lonelier than ever. He always had someone there for him, and he still needed someone to be there with him, especially now.

He had been hurting more than usual recently. He knew he messed up with Quackity, and he knew that Sapnap probably did not want to see him, but he didn't care. Karl needed someone and after finally building up the energy to go see another person, he goes to the only person he knows might answer the door when he knocks.

It was late at night, and Karl was now debating whether or not he should knock, but the door Infront of him opens in his surprise.

"Why are you here Karl." The person asked.

"Please let me in. I just want to talk." Karl replied, and in response the person let Karl in.

As the person closes the door they sigh.

"What do you need this late at night Karl."

"I needed you." Karl responded looking towards the ground

"Karl, please. It's late at night, why are you here." They responded

"I know I messed us up Sapnap, I messed up everything. But I need you right now, so please...let me stay here with you for a while." Karl said looking up at the brown eyes he once knew so well.

They both haven't spoken in more than a week, and the last time they did it didn't end well.

Sapnap sighed again and rubbed his forehead.

"Alright Karl, stay here for a while."

'Thank you Sapnap." Karl said back, almost going to hug the man, but stopping himself.

"Do you want anything to drink." Sapnap asked.

"Sure." Karl answered, and without saying what drink he wanted Sapnap walked off, and when he came back, he brought Karl a monster.

Even if they've been separated for a little while Sapnap still was nice to Karl.

With drinks in hand Sapnap lead them to his couch so they could sit down and talk.

It was Awkward at first, but Karl started off the conversation by apologizing for his actions.

Karl apologized for everything he did and told Sapnap about everything that had happened in the past few months.

Every single thing, every single thought, every feeling Karl had felt.

He told Sapnap everything about Quackity, even the kiss, and even though Karl thought Sapnap would be angry, he just stayed there with him, comforting him and listening to everything Karl had said, so he kept going. Spilling every detail from his life out to Sapnap.

Karl even started crying, and out of embarrassment he looked away from Sapnap. But as Karl calmed himself down and held back his tears, he looked back over to Sapnap and noticed that he too had started to cry into his hands.

The tears were silent, but looking at him the way Karl was, you could tell he in distress.

Karl tried to comfort Sapnap but as soon as he did, Sapnap got up, and with tears still slowly falling from his eyes he said,

"Thank you, Karl. For telling me all this." And took a deep breath. "But it does hurt me too you know. It's like I was in love with you, and you just weren't in love with me, but someone else."

He said with a shaky breath.

"I'm very upset, but I understand that you can't control your feelings. I just wish you would've told me earlier." Sapnap said while falling back on the couch. And putting his head in his hands.

"I know, I'm so sorry." Karl said quietly back to Sapnap.

"Please stop saying sorry like it fixes all of this Karl." Sapnap said which caught Karl off guard.

"I don't know if you telling me all this was the only reason that you came here, but I'm going to let you know now, that this is over now." Sapnap said while looking back up to Karl, who was even more shocked at what Sapnap had just said.

"But- What- what do you mean?" Karl replied

"We're over. Officially now Karl." Sapnap said nicely but sternly as well.

"I love you Karl, sand I have been in love with you for so long, and I never thought that this would end. But you clearly are not in love with me, and I am not going to keep myself in a one-sided relationship." He said to Karl

"You need to figure yourself out before you go back into anything. Don't go try to get with Quackity without understanding your feelings first." Sapnap continued. "And I'm sorry if this wasn't how you wanted this night to end, but I won't hurt myself to make you feel better about yourself. I love you Karl, and I will always love you and be here for you, but I need time away from you." Sapnap finished while standing up and walking towards the door.

"Have a goodnight Karl." Sapnap said while opening the door.

Karl was shocked, but he got up and walked to Sapnap.

"I love you too Sapnap. Thank you for listening to all this and being here for me even though it hurt you. I hope we can be friends again one day." Karl said with tears in his eyes looking down at the ground.

And before Karl walked out the house, Sapnap grabbed him and gave him a hug.

They both hugged each other tight with tears in their eyes, and when they finally let go of each other they both said, 'I love you' and went their separate ways.

A Karl was walking away from Sapnaps place, everything hit him at once.

He just lost everything.

He just lost both the people he loved and cared for the most, and neither would come back to him.

All the pain came out all at once, and Karl fell to the floor on his knees and let it all out.

He sat there and cried, just letting it out.

He ruined everything.

And now, nothing would be the same.

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