Is This Real?

Chapter 17

Quackity POV:

Quackity was sitting on his bed staring at his wall thinking like usual. It has been days since Quackity found Karl and Sapnap out there on their date together, days since he ran away. Seeing them together hurt Quackity in a way he didn't understand. He had seen his two friends together and happy, but something about this time just made Quackity feel different.

He felt pain.

Karl was all Quackity could think about these past days. He missed Karl. He missed everything that had to do with Karl. All the old jokes, the old talks, the old memories. Karl never left Quackity's mind.

These past couple of weeks had hit them both hard. They never talked, never joked, never made new memories. It was like their friendship ended, and it hurt both of them deeply.

Quackity felt like he had lost his best friend.

"his never would've happened if I had just talked to Karl about my feelings." Quackity thought out loud, sighing and putting his hands in his head.

He felt as though it was his fault their friendship went downhill. If he didn't leave that night of Karl and Sapnaps party, this whole Schlatt thing wouldn't have happened either.

Quackity blamed himself for everything.

"I can't even admit to myself that I feel something for him" He said out loud again.

He sat their thinking for longer. Thinking of everything that Karl did that made Quackity feel tingles in his chest.

Thinking of Karl's smile, his laugh, the way he gets mad, the way he overdramatizes everything, the way he jokes. Thinking of just Karl, and how much he had loved him.

"Fuck! Why did I never say anything? I should've just sucked it up and said something!" Quackity screamed at himself while standing up and throwing a pillow on the ground.

He was frustrated with himself.

Quackity wished he had figured his feelings out sooner or had never figured them out at all.

He sits back down on his bed and sighs.

'I couldn't do anything about it now, it would be too late' he thought to himself, but an idea pops in his head.

Quackity rushes to get a piece of paper and a pen and starts writing everything down.

Everything that has happened in these past weeks. Everything he had been feeling. Every thought he had of Karl was written down on this paper. From when Quackity first noticed his weird feeling, to his weird dream, to the feeling he got that night he found Karl and Sapnap on their date. He writes it all down and explains every last bit the best way he could.

All the frustration, all the pain, all the love was written down on this one note.

And when Quackity finished his note, took a deep breath. He finally felt at ease for the first time in days. He felt calm.

Everything was okay right now, and Quackity wanted it to stay this way, and in order for it to stay this way, he had to let go of his feelings for Karl. No matter how hard that would be, Quackity just had to do it.

He balled up his note, threw it to the ground and left his house.

What he needed now was a walk away from everything.

Karl POV:

Ever since that night Quackity had been on Karl's mind. That weird and confusing night. Karl had locked himself in his house since then. Ignoring Sapnap and his attempts to find out what had happened.