I feel like shit.
My first thought in the morning because I do feel like shit.
I didn't and couldn't sleep a wink last night.
Each time I tried to, I see...
I see him.
No nope, it's a new day. I'm not about to think about that monster.
Maybe I can get some sleep now since I'm off duty until 7 at night.
I just need a little, just a little.
Fucking awesome, please I just need a few minutes. Please.
I hate it here.
It sinks to my brain that I'm not going to get any sleep.
I sit up and walk to the bathroom not bothering to do my morning chant.
Yes I feel so bad that I don't bother to say something I've been saying since I was 10.
As I stare at myself in the mirror in the bathroom, I want to scream, I want to pull my hair, I want to forget it all.
I want to be 9 again.
"Holy shit, you look like shit!!!" Jeremy exclaims as I enter the kitchen.
He stands close to Daisy, a little too close I'm suspicious.
If I don't feel like hitting my head repeatedly on a metal until I bleed, I would have questioned it.
"Hey, babes. Are you OK?" Daisy asks her expression worried.
"Yeah, I didn't get much sleep last night"
I didn't get any sleep last night.
"I just need to clear my head. I'll be fine"
"Ok"
"Couldn't you have taken sleeping pills or something?"
I take a large gulp of water from the bottle I picked earlier before replying,
"I didn't have any"
"But aren't you like a doctor?"
How dumb can he be?
"Just because I'm a doctor doesn't mean I keep pills in my purse you uncultured cunt", I snap at him.
Both Daisy and Jeremy flinch.
"Girl, chill. Are you sure you're OK? "
No.
"Yes. I need a run"
I turn to go but I feel a hand grab my wrist. I turn, it's Daisy.
"Hey, I'm here for you. You know that, yeah? You can tell me anything"
"Daisy if this is about me being a virgin"
"No, no it's not. That's your business. Just generally. I'm here to listen if you want to talk"
I'm here to listen if you want to talk.
You wouldn't understand.
I'm messed up.
I manage a smile, "I know"
Do I?
She smiles a bit at me.
"I'll be back in a few hours"
With that, I walk to the front door.
"She's hiding something"
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RomansaVictoria is a 20 year old doctor. She's what you'll consider a genius only she doesn't feel like a genius at all. She wears a fake smile all the time, has a very big ego and thinks everyone is against her. A relocation for her residency would forev...
