In another life (Draco x reader)

Not again (47)

We were finally on the Hogwarts express, I was excited to be going back to school, home. I knew it as the place where there was never a boring day, where I could be with Draco. I sat in a compartment with Neville as usual but this time I didn't feel like walking down the train like I normally would. Instead, I leaned my head on Neville's shoulder and just tried to relax. 

There was no point in denying that my mind was thinking about knock turn alley and what I had seen. But what had I seen? Some part of me knew exactly what had happened that day. But another part, a stronger part tried to deny it completely. I also knew that despite what had happened I still felt the same about Draco, I still thought him the best thing in my life. 

"Hey what's wrong?"I heard Neville beside me. 

I took my head off his shoulder and just knew I needed to talk to him right now, tell him what I was thinking. He already knew something was wrong and I hated lying to him. 

I sighed "I went to Diagon Alley the other day with the Weasleys, Harry, and Hermione and I saw something. I know what it was but I don't know how to feel about it."

"What was it?" Neville asked me. 

"I saw Draco and his mom...uhmm in Borgin and Burkes and well...I think Draco might have done something, or I should say, had something done to him." I couldn't bring myself to say what it was exactly but I saw Neville caught on. I could see him struggling to find something to say. "Neville, even if what happened...happened I still trust him and my feelings for him haven't changed at all. I just feel concerned and scared." I told Neville, he put his arm around me and just gently pulled me towards him so my head was rested on his shoulder once more. 

"y/n I get it, and don't worry I'm here, just remember that." He reassured me. 

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After the long ride, we were finally at Hogwarts, Neville and I got off together and we got on a carriage with Luna and Justin. I still wasn't used to the fact that I could now see what was pulling the carriages and every time I looked at the thestrals I was just reminded of why I could now see them so I avoided looking at them as much as I could. 

On the train ride, I was sitting next to Neville but I did make some conversation with Luna.

"So Luna how are things with you and Theo?" She was wearing her usual soft smile making it hard to read her. 

"He hasn't written to me for a while, and he didn't say hello to me on the train, I think something's wrong but he doesn't want to tell me." She told me in her kind voice and I really couldn't tell whether it bothered her or not. 

"So y/n, maybe we should hang out sometime." Justin interrupted the conversation, I saw Neville confused as he turned to face Justin. 

"Uhmm, Justin we don't even know each other," I answered laughing uncomfortably. 

"I know, but you were awesome in the DA classes and I want to get to know you." He smirked and winked at me. 

"You do know she has a boyfriend right?" Neville asked him firmly. 

"Oh sorry, I didn't know you two.." Justin began looking at Neville and me and his demeanor immediately changed from cocky to embarrassed. 

"What? No, I'm dating Draco, I have been since Year 4" I told him a little confused at the fact he didn't know this. 

"Didn't you break up?" Justin asked 

"No, why?" I asked 

"Well he and Pansy are a thing now," Justin told me avoiding eye contact with me now. 

I laughed "No, I think you're confused." I told him and he simply shrugged. 

I turned to Neville and saw him also confused. The carriage came to a stop. 

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Once we were in the great hall I was still sitting next to Neville, I scanned the Slytherin table in search of Draco but saw that he was nowhere to be found. I thought it was odd but didn't exactly think much of it. After Dumbledore had started speaking I saw as he came in, I waited for him to turn and face me so I could throw him a smile but that moment never came. I saw him look at me for a split second before he sat down next to Pansy. 

I saw Neville follow my gaze as I watched Pansy lean over and kiss Draco, and not just a peck but a relatively long kiss before they stopped and Draco simply looked forward ignoring my existence completely. My heart stopped at the sight, I felt like I couldn't breathe, like my chest was tightening like every breath I took was killing me slowly. Before Neville could say anything I got up and walked out of the hall, I couldn't stay there any longer. 

I turned and saw Draco looking down at the table in front of him, Pansy smirking to herself, and Theo watching me with a pitiful look. A lot of heads turned as I made my way outside, trying not to break down in the hall in front of everyone. Finally, I made my way outside and ran to myrtle's bathroom. I rushed into a cubicle and collapsed on the floor, trying my hardest to take a breath in. I started crying, barely able to breathe when I saw Myrtle pop her head up from the toilet. 

She giggled " You sound worse than me." 

I laughed at her comment, agreeing with her. 

"Why are you crying?" She asked me 

I don't know why but at that moment I felt like I could talk to her and getting a few words out was helping me control my breathing. "I got cheated on...again," I told her finally able to control my sobbing. 

"I don't like boys all they do is hurt us." She told me in her droopy voice. I nodded. 

After I had calmed myself down and talked to Myrtle for a while I left the toilet and walked to my dorm room. Luckily for me, people thought Draco and I had broken up during the holidays which meant not a lot of people looked at me when I walked down the halls like they did when Seamus cheated on me. 

There was one person though who knew exactly what had happened. "y/n!" I heard someone call my name as I rounded a corner. 

I turned and saw Justin "Justin I-" I was about to shrug him off. 

"y/n, I just wanted to say I'm sorry...he's a dick." He told me, placing a hand on my arm in a gesture of support. 

I appreciated it, I leaned in and hugged him "Thank you." I whispered in a shaky breath. He squeezed me tightly before letting go and I continued on. 

I let Neville tried to comfort me once I got to the common room but told the trio and Ginny that I didn't want to talk on the subject anymore which they respectfully understood. I stayed in my room for a while just trying to process my start of the year.