"I understand how you're feeling completly Erin." My heart dropped at the sudden recalling of the fallen memories that haumted my present self. The pressures of the world are too much sometimes and you'll do anything to escape it, even if it means a painful suicide and will scar all that care about you. I hated it, but it was all too familar to me. I lowered my voice to a whisper as I connected my hand with my little sister's. "What made you wanna do this?"
She sighed, awarding out a simple statement, which I would soon refute. "It's complicated."
"I know things have been hard Erin but you can't just.. leave." Seeing her in any sort of pain has always reminded me of peaking down at my former self, but it resianted with me now more than ever. Kurt has always told me how proud he was of me for overcoming all that I have, but I'll never escape the past. As long as my mother keeps on tourting her fucking daughters my past will always haunt me.
"I'm sick of it all yknow? The constant stress of the courts, where I'm going to be living. I'm sick of it all, Hedi!"
"I know." I nodded slowly before sighing and biting at my lip. "It's not fair."
I had trouble sleeping that night. My lifelong fears were beginning to find themselves coming true. Kurt was sleeping peacefully beside me, his arms wrapped around my waist in a comforting manner. He himself was still in the minst of fighting his demonic drug addiction; the constant cravings for the drug were getting harder and harder to distract him from. I wouldn't ever tell him this, but I fear that he will find himself relapsing sooner rather than later.
"Did you get to sleep yet?" A groggy voice asked from beside me. I shook my head slowly, frowing before a slight smile become of my lips when Kurt softly kissed them. He ran his hand through my hair, pulling me close to him as he kissed the top of my head. "I didn't mean to fall asleep..."
"It's okay love." I whispered quietly as I pulled him into a quick kiss before we rested our foreheads together. "You can go back to sleep if you're tired."
"I'll be okay." Kurt sat up, carefully setting me on his lap. He ran his fingers down my back upon glancing in my eyes. "How about you?"
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Where Did You Sleep Last Night? || Kurt Cobain
Фанфик"I'm going where the cold wind blows." fresh out of prison, Hedi Rothwell is trying to get her life back together. while working at a run down convenience store with her old pal Stacey Keen, Hedi is introduced to fellow troublemaker and Nirvana fron...
