Tonight ✅

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The utterly clear gaze
The touch I got too used to
The face that smiled at me
Will I be unable to see you again anymore?
-Jin (Tonight)

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    I LOOK at her and smiled, she's very pretty and I can't even take my eyes off of her. The wind from the open window of my car blow her hair that makes her look like a goddess of the wind. Sound cheesy but I can't help but to admire her.

    I take off my eyes on her before she realized that I am not looking at the road. She will definitely scold me if she caught me staring at her instead of focusing on driving.

   “Jagi~” I take a glance at her as soon as I heard her calling me. “Hmm?” I hummed.

    “What if I die?”

   My forehead creased as soon as I heard her question. “What kind of question is that?”

   “Just answer me. I just wanted to know what you are going to do if some day you won't be able to see me”

    “Why do you even ask that? That won't going to happen”

    I glance at her but she is just staring at me. I look back at the road, still feeling uneasy about her question. I want to get mad not on her but on her question.

      Why she even think about her dying? She's healthy and as long as I am here I will make sure she's safe. I am here to protect her.

     “What if I die?”

     I heaved a deep sigh and scratch my eyebrow. She knows I am getting mad if I did that.

      “Don't get mad, people die anyway, so what's wrong if I ask about that?"

      I look at her as I park the car, we're already at the secret place we always go to.

      This is the last date for us, tomorrow is my flight for our world tour concert. I want to enjoy this whole day with her.

     And why she even such a bummer?

     “If I die, please don't regret anything. If I die, please don't cry. I want you to move on and continue living your life. I want you to be happy even if I am not the reason who makes you smile or laugh again”

     I don't know what to say to her.

     I stare at her eyes unable to speak something. I can see the sadness on her eyes. But why?

     Is she hiding something from me?

    “I am not going to do anything, because you are always beside me. Nothing will going to happen”

     She smiled at me. “I am always beside you”

     “Stop saying those things, I don't want to ruin this day”

      “Arasseo~~”

     I unbuckle my seatbelt and get out of my car, I quickly walk towards the other side of the car and open the door for her.

     I will make sure we are both going to enjoy our day together.

    

And I never knew....

It was the last...