Private Messages
Natalie Flores [ nicaragua ]
Valentina Lopez [ colombia ]
colombia
I DID A THING
I DIDNT MEAN TO
nicaragua
Did you accidentally push a fan to get a video of Taylor performing?
colombia
NO
LIKE OMG
I LITERALLY CANT BREATH
nicaragua
V
You're good
What happened?
It can't be that bad
colombia
So the concert finished and we went backstage and everyone was just hanging out. I don't know how but everyone was talking and then heading out to the after party thing and all of a sudden it was just Tom Ems and I. Then Ems went to the bathroom before we headed out. We were sitting there just taking and all of a sudden I became really aware of how close we were sitting and how his eyes crinkle when he smiles. I didn't realize I was leaning towards him until it happened.
nicaragua
It better have been a kiss.
colombia
Don't encourage this
This isn't okay.
He's my best friend
I cheated on my husband
I'm a terrible person
I skipped the after party and came back to the hotel
I'm in the bathroom hiding from Ems
nicaragua
V
You did not cheat on Isaiah
You're a widow
This is not cheating
This is you moving on
It was gonna happen eventually
That does not make you a terrible person
It makes you human
Can I be super honest with you?
colombia
I feel like a crap person
What the hell was I thinking?
I guess you can
nicaragua
Isaiah and you were soulmates - there is zero doubt in my mind about that. You guys loved each other so well and so passionately. You were both these two amazing individual people who got together and created magic. I've never seen people who are so similar to each other, also some how complement each other and not kill the other. How y'all did that, I will never know.
With that being said, Tom and you had this immediate connection. You guys met on a Tuesday and by Wednesday he was answering your phone for you. It took you two years to trust me to do that. You guys are the opposites of each other in all the right ways. There's always been something there. You just didn't notice it because you love Isaiah.
Now you don't have Isaiah and this connection is finally okay to show to Tom. It's not ideal at all, and I know you well enough to know you're going to hate yourself for it. I also know that you realizing all of this is going to make you panic and run and think you made a million mistakes to get you to this point. You didn't. You fell in love with Isaiah and did everything right and lost him. Now you have to learn to do life with new people - whatever that looks like.
colombia
Isaiah was my first love
nicaragua
He will always be that
colombia
It hasn't even been a year
nicaragua
You didn't marry someone, you kissed someone.
This does nothing to decrease or erase your marriage with Isaiah
Yeah it hasn't been a year, but everyone heals at different rates and in different ways.
colombia
I don't want to ruin my friendship with Tom and I feel like any decision I make will do that.
nicaragua
Sometimes you have to risk being burned to be lit again
colombia
That was really deep and I hate you for it
Private Messages
Tom Holland [ TheRealOne🧡 ]
Valentina Lopez [ LittleOne🧡 ]
TheRealOne🧡
Valentina
We should talk
LittleOne🧡
Yeah, we should.
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and that is the end of Que Será. i'm gonna go back and edit probably next week because i know there are so many mistakes on this one.
here's to never knowing what life is gonna throw at you 🥂
1/17/22: three months after i posted this, i was in a mental rehab facility for a month. that's fucking wild. book two is coming and it has a lot of religious deconstruction. it's mainly for me. just like this was for me.
YOU ARE READING
Que Sera
Fanfiction@valevalde: "Hey, you're that girl that's gonna be in Civil War, right?" "No I'm not, sorry." *10 minutes later* "Wait..." --- Where an up and coming actress breaks out into the acting world by getting a role of a life time. [Social Media]
