Maroon ■ Scorbus

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it hurts.
thinking of her, i mean.
it also hurts to not talk to albus, to ignore his existence. it miss him so much, i miss his hugs, his laugh, his smile....
its not that im not used to ignoring everything he says and does, i did it for a few days after i got the news abour mt mum before he forced me to talk to him.

but this time i stopped taking to him out of no where. theres no reason for it, at least its not a reason he knows...

i have to get rid of these feelings. i have to let these feelings float away, Albus will never like me that way.

yet I keep coming back to the same conclusion, the same thought. the thought that makes me sob on the ground, that makes me scream and pull my hair, that makes me wish i never existed.

the thought and feeling of love