I was walking along the woods back to the highway. My mind was going crazy. I was in a daze walking straight ahead, the group were beside me, yet I was acknowledging non of them. Thinking of how worried, sad, stressed and depressed I was about carl, my thoughts were giving me a headache.
I heard something, to the left. My head jerked toward the sound. 2 walkers, Glenn and Michonne were heading towards them, but I put my hand up in front of them. "stop, they are mine..." I headed towards the one closest to us and slashed at its head which made it fall to the floor, the second one I slit it right across the stomach. All its guts fell out and it was half dead. The top half of its body was slowly crawling towards me, I stabbed it in the head and the blood from the lifeless body splattered on my face. I unsteadily stood up and ran behind a tree, I threw up. I was disgusted at what I had to do everyday to survive. The world really had gone to hell...
We got back to the highway at least a few hours before sundown. Dale looked at us in confusion and worry. "Where the hell is Lori? Rick? Shane? Carl?" Even his name hurt my head... And my heart. Knowing he wasn't here made me want to scream. "Carl... Um he was shot." Just that sentence brung a tear to my eye. "A girl on horse took Lori to the farm where he is being helped by a doctor. We need to go now, to support them all" I said, the group looked at me, whilst I wiped the blood splatters off of my face with a cloth and some clean water. I heard dale whispering behind me "is she okay? What happened to her?!"
I ignored whatever happened after that. I walked into the RV, Andrea followed me in. "Sweetie? Are you okay?" She asked me calmly. My mom used to call me sweetie...She died when I was really young, I can't really remember her but dad always described her as amazing, beautiful and confident.
"I'm, not okay... I'm so close to carl, I don't want to see him get hurt, or worse." I said holding my hands to my face.
"I know what it's like to lose someone. But you and carl together...are so strong, he will pull through for you. I promise" she pulled me into a hug and I felt so close to Andrea, she always understood me. "Thank you Andrea " I said whilst hugging with her.
We had packed up all 3 cars, ready to go to the farm. I was feeling anxious, nervous for carl. He would be okay, I know that he will be. He is strong.
Glenn was in the RV with dale and Carol, I went in the Hyundai with Andrea and Daryl was on his motorcycle. We got lost quite a bit, but how are we meant to get anywhere nowadays with no maps or satnavs?! After at least 2 hours of looking, we finally saw the farm. We turned into the long road with the sign at the end stating the surname of , 'Greene '. We pulled up a few yards from the house, we all saw Rick on the front porch of this olden beautiful house. The house was so untouched, it was amazing. Being this far out from the city must be such a benefit for these people. Bright White paint slathered onto the outer walls of the house, fields for miles, animals. This could be safe for us...
I got out of the car and ran to Rick who was covered in what I suspected was Carl's blood, let's just say his shirt was no longer white. "Rick!" I shouted as I ran towards him. I hugged him, wrapping my arms around his neck as a sign of comfort. "How is he?" I was afraid to ask.
"He....he is losing blood rapidly...I am going to give him my blood, we are the same type, it's all I can do to help..."
Seconds after finishing his sentence, an old man stepped out of the house. Rick stood up and out his hand on the mans shoulder "Everyone, this is Hershel, he owns this farm and he is helping Carl. He is a vet but he reckons he can save him."
Hershel began to speak. "You may all stay here until the boy is well. We will allow you to make camp out front on the lawn, but please do not set foot in the house unless you have permission." We all thanked him for his hospitality and started to grab our tents and make our camp in the front garden. The good thing about Hershel's front lawn was that it wasn't small at all. It was about the size of one of his farming fields! We were thankful for the space we had. The sun went down and we had our new living space finished. There were around 7 tents up and the cars parked not far away from them. I had a tent to myself, Rick and Lori were in one together, Carol had her own, Daryl had his but not as close to anyone else's for some reason, he was kind of a closed up person, but I liked that about him. Dale slept in the RV, and Andrea wasn't far from me either.
T-dog, Lori, Rick and Hershel were in the house... And carl too. It was dark, but everyone was still awake, so it wasn't too late a night. I walked to the front porch and knocked on the door. It felt weird because for the past few months, I hadn't knocked on a door and asked to come in...it was a strange feeling. Lori opened the door and and told me to come in. "Carl is sleeping now, but he was awake earlier, he told me he missed you. " What she said to me made me smile. She opened the door where carl was. "Do you want me to leave you with him?" She asked me, I nodded slightly and she shut the door behind me. I turned to look at him, needle is his arm, bandaged around his gun shot. I ran to the chair next to him, I held his hand. His soft fingers through mine. I looked at him sleeping softly, breathing heavily. My stomach felt funny, my heart was pounding as I looked at him. He fluttered his eyes open and looked over at me.
"Carl..." I was unsure if he was awake or not.
"Jess... Is that you? " He wiped his eyes and looked into mine. His voice sounded weak as if he hadn't used it in a while. I awkwardly slipped my hand out of his. He didn't know that I liked him. I didn't want him to know whilst he was in this mess... I wanted him to know at the right time. "No... Put your hand back in mine." I blushed and place my hand back in in his. He started closing his eyes again and I looked at him in worry...
His chest stopped moving, "LORI!!!" She ran in and called Hershel over he quickly took Carl's blood pressure before it happened. He was having a seizure, it was so agonising to watch...I didn't want to lose him... Not now, not ever!
I....I love him.
OKAY GUYS! I'm really sorry that I haven't been on this week!!!! But I have been really busy then my internet went down for a day or two!😳 hope youuuu YA like this chapter love you all!!!! 😘
