Don't be scared baby

first fight

i woke up to soft wet kisses down the back of my neck "mmm, good morning baby" i said turning over to meet nathans lips, he moved his hand and was rubing my thigh, it was soft and sweet. under the blankets our bodies moved in sync, i could wakeup like this everyday. nathan had looked me in my eyes while trying to seduce me even more he had leaned down and kissed me again but harder, and hungry for some lovin. i wrapped my arms around his neck pulling his body closer to mine, while my one hand was running through his hair "baby i want you"i said to him, he spoke back in his sexy morning voice, "its all me and you babe" it was me and nathan lost in the sheets, having the best sex of my life, over and over, he kissed down my neck leaving small little love bites. "nate" i moaned in pure pleasure, tugging on his hair his chain had hung low touching my breasts it was cold and added to the wonderful sensation he was giving me. he had pushed into me so hard so fast and i felt like i was losing my mind. i ran my hands over his sholders and onto his back pushing his body on me more, running my finger nails on him lightly, "mace" he said deeply, we finished and rode out our highs and layed together i had rested my head on his chest and he ran his hands through my hair, it put my right to sleep.

i woke up around 12 in the afternoon, nathan was onhis lap top doing something, i just layed there and looked around, i picked up my phone and was scrolling through instagram, my phone started ringing, tyler seguin came up on the caller ID

"hello?" 

"macie hi!" 

"tyler hi, how are you?" 

"im okay how are you" 

"im really good, what do i owe you to recive this call " i joke around

nathan looks at me and just looks back to his computer

"well i heard you were quarantining and i heard also your dancing was getting big! im so proud of you. your all grown up" he said with a laugh, i chukled along side him

"you know im like not that much younger than you so its not that crazy, but ya its been exceiting" i said back to him 

"ty please tell me why your really calling" i questioned him 

"well i wanted to know what like the perfect date idea is? i am seeing this girl and i know when we had a little thing i was shitty with dates and no one sees me as the dating type but i really like her!" he said 

"um well find out about what she likes and if it were me i would want you to do something we both like, and dont hook up on the first date to seem desprate, if it were me id was dinner, perfect dates dont exist but you can try and create one close to perfect, maybe the beach and then a nice dinner with a movie is a good start, but listen ty, let me know how it goes, i have to go talk soon" i said noticing nathan isnt too happy 

" ya forsure  bye macie" with that i hung up

i threw on some clothes and brushed my teeth, i was gwtting alittle hungry so i ordered some food for nate and i

i walked over to him and wrapped his arms around his shoulders and kissed his cheek, "hi love!" i said but he didnt say anything. 

"is eveything okay?" i asked confused 

"i dont know macie just leave me alone!" he raised his voice, 

"yaaaa, sure! of course. except where the fuck do you want me to go nate, its not like i can exactly leave remember!?" this time i yelled back

"well i dont care what you do or where you go your not even my girlfriend go talk to some other hockey player, do WHAT THE FUCK EVER YOU WANT TO DO< JUST LET ME BE" he faced me and yelled. i let hot tears stream down my face, i went into the little kitchen dine area and grabbed a few coolers, my phone and i locked my self in the bathroom, there is no other room to be in and i cant leave the room so i locked my self in the washroom where we cant interact with eachother.

its been five days into this quarantine.not even a FULL week and we are fighting about what, this is so stupid, i just cried, i silently let it out, i face timed ellie, she sat down on her couch and agree to have a drink with me, i told her everything about me and nate and our fight and i cried it out with her. she had to go   so it was just me, i sat my phone and drink down and before i knew it i fell asleep. 

a few hours later 

{knock knock} 

{kno-

"macie baby, im so sorry please let me in," nate sounded so upset and sincere but i wasnt ready to give in that easy, 

"go away" i said shakily and wearing, my throat had a lump in it and tears streamed down my face again.

"just unlock the door babe" 

"dont babe me nathan, didnt you forget im not your girlfriend and i needed to leave you alone so i am, why do you want to see me, im doing what you asked!" i shouted through the door, and then the best thing happened

he didnt fight back, he didnt yell, shout, or retaliate. he talked softly 

"i know, your right  hun, and i am so sorry i didnt mean to yell just please let me in. i lied i didnt want you to leave me alone, i got upset and when you agreed and did what  i said i hated that i wanted you to fight back and not leave me alone, im just very stressed out and im so sorry! i wished you didnt leave me alone and i know what i did was wrong i do, and im so sorry, please baby... let me in"

i crowled over and slowly unlocked the door, i went back to where i was sitting and put my head in my hands, because i know if i look at him i will break and forgive him but im not ready for that because the way he treated me isnt okay, there was no reason. 

he walked in slowly and kneeled down beside me, "macie" he said softly resting his hand on my knee "please look at me" he said, i could hear the sadness in his voice

i brought my head up and i wiped my own tears before i looked him in the eyes 

"nathan that hurt, i dont care if im being a little bitch but i didn't do anything wrong to deserve that, how do we go from having the best sex ever to screaming at eachother for an unknown reason, it really hurt!" i explained to him how i was feeling. 

"i know and im sorry it was unexpected and i didn't even mean too, i think i was just jealous. i really was. i dont even know why, i guess i knew you were talking to tyler and hes so much better than me, the way you sounded close it rubbed me the wrong way because you could leave me for him. my self confidence is so low and i knew right then that i was nothing compared to him and it took over me. i think a big part of it too was that we have been stuck in this small room just the two of us without and fresh air or anything for almost a week and it was getting to me. im so so so sorry please forgive me" he said and grabbed my hands 

"okay, okay i understand, i just wish you would have talked to me about it and not yelled, i dont take yelling very well, im sorry too" i said. he smiled and stood up reaching his hand out offering me a hand to get up, i grabbed my phone and drink and stood up beside him and he wrapped me in a warm hug, i smiled to myself at the feeling of him. i also took the time to look at him he was cute. he was wearing a white t shirt and black shorts and his hair was the way it alwasy was and he had some scruff, and his chain was showing at the slightest under his shirt

"nate, you look cute" i said into his chest

he squeezed me tighter "not as cute as you" he rubbed my shoulders looking down at me and planted a kiss on my forehead.