Can blinds see their dreams? Can deaf hear thier heartbeat? When will be the stone became soft? How can i be able to see the wind? Am i going to feel it forever? Without touching it?
I'm not like on other young girls out there, they usually see some things normally, they can feel love naturally, they can cry reasonably and they can smile truly
But me? I used to see souls, hearing thoughts from the people who no longer exist, and helping them to say goodbye
" No one?!" i asked with my widened eyes" Yeah no one, i used to have friends back then but... Their feelings towards me, was far from my feelings for them" he said then looks down
He was Dokyeom, and he's a soul... I'm not gonna call him ghost because his too kind and handsome to be one
It's been 40 days since he passed away but still, he can't enter the after life....
" because no one loves me, the way i love them" i looked at him "but h-how? You're too kind to be hated?" i asked but he just smile " i don't know, maybe being too much kind can make others feel bad for you" he said "even you're parents?" i asked
"yeah, Even them... Because if they do, i must not still in here right now... I must be on my way to the other door" he said " so what do you want me to do?" i asked " find someone that loves me" he said
"geez, from all of the souls that i help, you're case was the hardest" i said then he looks at me "really? So loving me is hard too" he mumbled then i patted his head but my hands touches nothing
Oh! I can't touch him!
So i just smiled at him "no it's not! I know their's someone who loves you, I'll find that 'someone' for you" i said then he smiles at me "thank you (y/n)" he said then i just nodded at him
Searching the whole city and finding someone who knows him was not that difficult, Seokmin was kinda popular when he was still alive... But non of them appreciated him
And that's the difficult one
It's almost 18 days since i started to find someone , but still i can't find one
"hey, are you tired? Take some rest first" he said while appearing infront of me "no, it's okay..." then he looks at me
So i stared at his face, he has a beautiful eyes that matches at his pointed nose and the way he smile.. Makes him look perfect...
"I'm sorry" i said then he looks at me then let's out a sad smile "it's fine" he said "no, that's not what i mean... I am sorry for not being the best help for you" i said " no! Hey! Don't say that! You're really a big help to me (y/n)"
Days and weeks have passed... But still i can't find anyone who has feelings for him... But inside of this 38 days... I suddenly feel weird inside of me
I don't know but, every time when i saw him smile it mades me feel like i'm in a safe place, the way he talked to me, it mades me feel that i am not alone... The way he say thank you to me.. Mades me feel that i was worth it
Because my existence, was not that good, i don't have friends, i don't have parents, i am weird, only spirits can talk to me
That's why i rather hang out with souls, than to be with living humans
And being with seokmin, mades me feel that i am not the (y/n) that they used to know, even me.. I started to ask myself if i am the still me?..
Because i admit.... I feel inlove with a spirit
" good morning!" i look at my left side when then i saw Seokmin, with a wide smile " i wanted to cook breakfast for you but i realised that I'm no longer a living human! Hahahaha!!" he laughed
That mades me stopped and looked down "y-yeah... You're now a soul... Not a living human..."
" hey (y/n) are you crying?" i wiped my tears then looks at him " i love you seokmin!" i straightly said to him
Then he's smile faded "what?" i stood uo and looks at him " i don't know! I know i must don't have to feel like this because you're a soul a spirit! But... I just fell inlove with you..." i said
"b-but..." then i saw his tears " why me?, why is it has to be you? Why is it me? Why am i dead? How can i fell inlove with you too?" he said that mades me stop
By letting my tears flow down to my cheeks i stared at him, while he's getting closer to me.... I suddenly feel a sudden cold on my cheeks and saw him holding mine...
It's been 6 days since we did that confession towards each other, though i feel happy! Because i can say 'i love you' to a person! But i feel sad when i realised that i am saying 'i love you' to a soul
"stop crying will you?" he said while he's teats was falling down to his cheeks
Today is day 44,
"just don't forget me okay?" i said then he smiled "w-why would i?" he asked "because you're now leaving" i said, then the both of us cry out loud
This situation was not normal, falling inlove with a soul is that possible?
But right now, those thoughts become real, because falling inlove with a soul has a reality
They'll leave, because they have too.. They will not leave because they didn't love you
"i love you.. So much" i said "thank you (y/n) thank you for loving me, i didn't experience to be loved when i was still alive, and i didn't expect that i will only feel loved when I'm dead... So thank you... Thank you for loving me"
"but loving you is making you go" then my tears feel
"i love you so much, thank you... I won't forget you" then he smiled and my teats started to fell
My eyes was filled with tears that mades my vision blurry, but as i wiped my tears away... When i blinked my eyes... The guy that i love finally bid goodbye
So i let my tears to fall instantly on my cheeks
I fell inlove on a unbelievable way, i smiled in a weird reason, and i cried because i was trying to deny the reality that you're not now here with me...
