I feel sorry to my self or should i feel it for him? Or for the both of us?
Like a shell under the blue sea, that travels with the wave and goes to the shore and left it on the sand and goes nack to the sea
Just like what I've do to him
I left him without some reason, am i bad girl? Did i break a man's heart? Am i selfish?
I didn't know some things that time when we we're still together, maybe i was too young to be in that situation
He was a loving boyfriend, bubbly, friendly and a loving one
And a fool like me left that kind of man
I left him without some trace, and goes to the place where his name didn't exist
If your asking me if i feel hurt that time? No i didn't, i feel confused to myself
Because it looks like my body has own mind or let just say my mind rules my body without letting my heart to say it's words
I left a guy that i love, that loves me with all his heart i don't know what's going on with me, but i still love him
Maybe i need to find myself first before i love others, i gave love to a person and i forgot give myself one
He was kind, he understands me, he didn't get jealous easily he was a perfect man, the man that i used to call as my prince.. The man named JUN
"how is he?" i asked over the phone i called my brother to check on him
Yeah, i left him but i still care to him
"he's good (y/n) just don't mind him hayst" he replied
"but-" he cut my words "look I've been hiding this to you and telling lies to you but i need to say the truth my dear sister" he said that made me gulps "jun, your ex, he didn't care to you, not at all, yes you left him, but he didn't cry, he didn't feel any disappointment nor asking me if do i know why you left" he said then i stops
"he didn't care at all, it was just you, you left him and it's not a deal to him, i told you at the first place that do not fell deeper to him, because he doesn't care of anyone's feelings but I'm glad that you leave him" in that moment i feel like my heart was being stab a thousand times
"n-no.." i mumbled "just go back here, he didn't care if you come back though I'll hang it up bye" he said then my phone slipped into my hands and fells on the floor
So it's just me? All this time it was just me? I care to him a lot, kaya lang naman ako umalis para mahalin sya ng mas matagal
I have a heart disease, i barely need a transplant and i don't want to tell it to him
That's why i left
But he doesn't care....
Just like what my brother said i immediately get a flight back to our place
"your back, welcome" my brother greeted and i smiled "thanks" i said and hopped on his car
I miss this place, it didn't change
"wait" i said then my brother looks at me "hmm?" then i look at him
"can you drop me to the beach? At my favorite place?" i asked then sighed "your hoping for him don't you?" he asked then i gulped
He know that, that place was our favorite place we use to spend our dates there
"n-no, i just want to see that place" i said
He have no choice but to drop me on that place
Then i start to walk on the shore.. And feel the wind that passes to my palms
"i wish you were here" i mumbled
Then i step into the water "(y/n)?" i stopped when i hear a familiar voice
"(y/n)? Nae sarang?" my heart beats fast when i recognise those voice, then i look at him
Then gulped "h-hi?"
Then he looks at me from head to toe, and smiles
My eyes widened when i saw his tears
"j-jun" then he hugged me tightly "i knew it you'll comeback" he said that mades me confused then i pulled back
Then i saw his tears was falling non stop
"you care?" i asked then he looks at me "i didn't" he said "then why? What's with that t-tears?"
"why did you left me?" he asked that mades me stop "y-you didn't care anyways" then i looked away
"tell me" then i look at him, and my tears starts to fill my eyes
"i left so that i could love you till the rest of my life"
"..."
"i want to be with you forever, even though death was dealing with me, i choose to left you without telling that i need to take a heart transplant"
"...."
"i want to gave up but i met you, i left without reason but i have one"
"(y/n).."
Then my tears fell "that how i love you, but you didn't care though, you're not looking for me, you didn't even search nor asking someone to tell where am i" i said then his tears fell
"wanna know why?" he asked then i look at him
"when you left me, i thought you were just playing with me, so i stay right here, waiting for you to come back"
"...."
"i know i still need you, no matter what i do i can't get mad at you, i love you, i promise to my self that i will hold back my tears till the day i see you..." then his tears fell
"i don't wanna cry, i know its not your goodbye, i know you'll come back to me again, i choose to stop my feelings, because if i cry i wilk not able to find you"
"j-jun.."
"i keep on saying that I'm fine but i am not, i keep on let out a forced smile so that i can see my self and tell that I'm fine, it's hard to pretend that your okay even if your not"
Then my tears fell then he holds my hand
"so i stay here in this place, because i know you will come back here, for me" then he smiled
"I'm sorry" i said then he wiped my tears "you must say that you love me not sorry" then he looks at me and place his forehead against mine
"i think i can now cry because you are now here, my love" then he kisses me..
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