Over percent of patiences must be required, you need to boost your understandings to know thier problem and put away your judgement to heal them
Thier problems is my job, i need to deal with Thier problems so that i can solve them
I am a psychiatrist, a different kind of people needs to deal with me, i need to do my best to make them trust me
Loud screams, heavy tears, clenched fist, shaking body, uncomfortable eyes, and specially FEAR
That was the main characteristics that I've seen in my patients
So i already get used tl hear thier complains and the way the talk to me, i can't blame them they've experience a traumatic activity and it's hard to erase
It's hard to get away from the things that makes you crave or surrender life, because it already left a mark, and it results a new but a dangerous one
"doc (y/n) you have a new patient" my assistant nurse announced, so i fixed my glasses and gaves her a smile "okay, where is he? Nor her?" then she looks at her ipod and looks at me after "okay doc, I'll get him in" she said then walks away
Then i get my pen and my note while waiting for them
So he is a guy?
"hello" i lifted my gaze when someone sits on the chair towards on my table where i am sitting at
Then i saw a man; he has a well shaped brows and his eyes are smiling at me, then he has a good shape of nose and a well defined lips
Them reality hits me "a-ahmm hi?" i greeted then he chuckles elegantly "are you doctor (y/n) Jung?" he asked then i nodded and smiles "yes i am, by the way are you the brother of the patient?" i asked then he smiled at me "no, i don't have a brother, i am the patient doc" he said that mades me blink
Is he serious? Why would a gentle innocent lamb like him became a patient in this place? "really? Oh i see, maybe you just got into a wrong place, sir this is not a medical hospital" i said
"i know" he said "it's a mental hospital" he added then i look at him "so are you sure that you are a patient here? Because it looks like that you aren't" i said then he chuckles
I didn't see some characteristics of a person that has mental illness in him, he looks like a simple person
" yeah, some of them said that before i took them" he said then i look at him "w-what?" i asked
What was that for?
"nothing" he said then he looks at me "i barely need to consult to a psychiatrist" he said "w-why? You look normal" i said "i know, but i need you" he said
The wind of curiosity brushed into me so i push my glasses up a lil bit to my nose so that it won't stay on the tip of my nose
"if you say so, so what's your name?" i asked "joshua... Joshua hong" he said then i wrote his name then i look at him
"so what are you feeling right now?" i asked then he looks at me then smiles "i feel delighted" he said "ooookay?, what more?" i added "I'm happy" he said
"so what kind of things did you do that makes you came here?" i asked then he looks at me "i killed my girlfriend" then he smiled
That mades me stop and gulped at the same time "r-really?"
Woah! How can he said that directly with a smile on his face!?
He was just the only patient that gives me goosebumps
"yeah" he said then i breathe in and out and forced a smile "I'm glad, that you came here after killing a person for the first time" i said then he looks at me "it's not the first one" he said the i stopped "i killed many... Not just her" then his expression turned into a serious one
Then he leaned at the table to get his face closer to mine
"i also killed, ants, mosquitoes, cockroaches and many insects.. Pffft! Hahahahahaha!" then he laughes
Is that a joke? Phew~
Then i chuckled "he... He"
That was our first encounter, i didn't know that behind on some innocent faces they might be also dangerous as him
But being his doctor, i will say that he is a good patient, but sometimes he mades me creep out
He say the things that he did comfortably without some doubts nor hesitations on it
But it is also hard to see if he's okay nor totally healed, because he always smile at me and acts normally
But as time passes we already getting closer to each other, well as a psychiatrist i really need to be sticked to my patients and mades them feel that they trust me
And i am glad that joshua feels that way, and i am also to him
Everyday i will say that he is improving, by seeing him hold some sharp things i can't see some aura on his eyes, so i think this treatment affects him already
"so I'll let you to see yourself in the mirror, and tell me how you feel while seeing your self" i said then he nods and looks at the mirror "so what do you feel?" i asked "i feel proud" he said while looking at himself at the mirror "i feel proud that i am this handsome bwahahaha!" he added then i give him a serious stare "joshua we need to focus please don't joke around" i said then he chuckles and pinched my cheeks "I'm sorry" he said then winks
That mades me feel something weird inside me, geez
"okay so as you can see-" he cut my words "it's a knife" he said then i look at him "yeah, so i want you to hold one of those knives and tell me how do you feel okay?" then he nodded "okay" he said then gets the sharpest one
Today is not the first time that i let him hold some knife so i didn't feel nervous anymore
"what do you feel?" i asked then he look at me "i feel good" he said then i smiled "good! Phew! I think you're improving oh no! You already improved I'm glad" then i chuckled but he suddenly pulled my nape and kissed my lips
My eyes widened but it slowly closed when he starts to nibble his lips against mine
Wait! He was my patient! A PATIENT!
Out of my surprise i pushed him hard "I'm sorry" he said then wiped his lips and smiled at me "i am just happy hehe" he said
"ookay....he....he" i replied "I'm ready doc" he said then i look at him "reafy for what?" i asked then my eyes widened "really!? Are you sure!?" i asked then he chuckles and pecked at my lips that mades me stop "uhuh now asked me" he said
Sh*t! Why did he do that?
"okay... Ahmm why did you kill your girlfriend?" i asked then he looks at me "did she cheat on you?" i asked "no" he replied "then what?" i asked "because she's a psychiatrist" he replied "okay, wait what!?" i asked then i stopped
Then i saw him grins... Then i feel nervous "i hate her job that's why" he said then i gulped "why would you always treatand deals with our problems!? This is our fate! To took lives! So why did you need to heal us? If i we want to do more and never be healed?" then he smirks "j-joshua..." then i step backwards
"i really want to kill them a person with a job named 'psychiatrist', that's why i killed them...why are you deals with our mental health? We don't need it... Because we want it" then he smiled evilly
my eyes widened when he gets the sharpest knife that he holds awhile ago then he step toward me so i step backwards until I feel the cold wall behind me "you know what (y/n)? You're pretty" then he lifted my chin "so i bet, your screams was pretty too"
