Cities And Distance

Chapter 12.

Umiiyak ako sa sasakyan habang nagmamaneho siya pauwi- honestly, 'di ko alam kung saan. I just saw the car passed by the arc of our village. Hinayaan ko nalang. Tonight, my heart aches because of how Liam played me... he played me well. 

I trusted him so much, I was so comfortable around him and even catches feelings for him. We were so close with each other, we were so friends and we trusted each other so much. He already means so much to me, and I don't get it why... why all of a sudden it will end up this way?

"Tell your mom 'di ka muna makakauwi. I don't think you can-"

"Just take me home... in my mother's arms." I said, cutting him off.

 I heard him sighed, but I completely ignored it. I am focusing on how my heart aches right now. I'm not crying due to what I just heard, I'm crying because I cannot believe  it will happen to me. I cannot believe it will be like this, we'll end up like this. He told me... he told me he likes me! And why, why did he- how could he!

Nag u-turn si Damon pabalik, halatang ihahatid niya talaga ako sa'min. But I don't want my mother to see me this way. Kagagaling ko lang sa school, nag aaral lang ako kanina tapos ngayon umiiyak na, masaya lang ako kanina bakit ngayon nasasaktan na. Ganito ba talaga pag nagkagusto ka sa isang tao, masakit ba talaga?

Is pain necessarily needed in love? You really can't love without pain?

The car stopped in front of the villages gate, I wiped my tears out and opened the door beside me. Damon went out of his car too, he walked towards me and held me on my shoulders. I looked down on my feet, trying to stop myself from crying. He revealed something awhile ago, I should be thankful! Dahil Liam will finally focus his attention to Nalia, 'di na sakin! Kasi sinaktan na niya ako, 'di ba? 

"Thanks." Malamig at walang buhay kong sabi sa kan'ya.

His face become firms as he looks at me, tinignan ko siya ng ilang segundo bago nag iwas at naglakad palsyo sa kan'ya.

Damon followed me, pinigilan niya 'ko sa pamamagitan sa paghawak sa kamay ko. "Wag ka munang umuwing gan'yan."

He paused and sighed at me, I am still not facing him the reason for him to let go of my hand and walked infront of me, he stood there— his body towered over mine. Tumingin siya sa'kin, mata sa mata.

"Umalis ka na.." Sambit ko, "K-kaya ko sarili ko.."

"Anong sasabihin mo sa Mama mo pag nakita ka niyang gan'yan? Pulang pula 'yang mga mata mo tapos basang basa na 'yang damit mo, ano isasagot mo sa Mama mo—"

"Kaya ko ang sarili ko! 'Wag kang paki-alamero!"  Pasigaw kong sabi sa kan'ya. Damon took a step back and still has the same firm face.

"You look like a mess, 'di magandang salubong sa 'yong ina." He said, my tears burst again after his comment. Lalo akong humagulgol sa harap niya, at nanghina. Inalalayan niya ako —both of his hands were on my shoulder, assisting my entire body from falling.

He guided me again back to his car. Pinaupo niya ako sa shotgun seat, he went back to the drivers seat and drove away.

Later on he brought us to Starbucks in Paseo, nagpark lang siya sa harap ng Starbucks, "I'll order for us, dito lang tayo iinom ng kape."

He went out of his car but left the engine on, I cried inside while savoring all the pain my heart has. The heaviness of it's pain is something that's new to me, that's not I can control... the pain is really... really painful.. so painful.

Humahagulgol ako sa loob ng sasakyan niya, hanggang sa makabalik siya. He has iced coffee and a black coffee, he handed the iced coffee to me. I thanked him, he nods and turns on the radio.