My Hero Academia Imagines

18 // Tamaki Amajiki // "Insecurities" (Series pt 1)

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She simply watched as I ate my food, smiling a little. I became suddenly aware that I was eating fast and that it probably looked disgusting. I put my food down and wiped my face, feeling my face get hot,

"S-Sorry." Her smile dropped,

"For what?" I wiped my hand on my legs,

"N-Nothing. Sorry." She placed her hand on the table. I reflexively grabbed her finger and felt a sense of comfort wash over me. Later that night, I stared in the mirror,

"I'm so skinny..." I turned to the side. I felt my face get hot again, this time with pure sadness. No matter how much I tried, I couldn't gain weight. No matter how much food I ate. No matter how much I worked out and trained. I could only maintain my current weight. When I did gain, it was a pound or less at a time and I always ended up losing it just as quickly. I placed my hands on my stomach,

"Y/N probably hates that I'm so skinny." I could feel my ribs poking through a little. I burst into tears in that moment. I watched my chest as I cried, seeing my ribs poke out with every heaving breath. I started hyperventilating and panicking a little,

"Need... Y/N... want..." I stumbled into the bathroom and splashed cold water on my face like Y/N had told me before. I caught a glance at my wrist and noticed how prominently the bones poked out. I cried harder and made my way back to my bed. I sobbed into my pillow until I couldn't breathe. My chest heaved again as I hyperventilated for the second time,

"Y/N..." I grabbed my phone and did my best to text her. I couldn't think straight and I couldn't even see through my tears. I curled up on my bed,

"Please..."

~Y/N's P.O.V~

I heard my phone go off over my music. I checked it and smiled when I saw a text from Tamaki,

Tama: cime uver please

Me: huh?

Me: Tama?

Me: Baby?

Tama: need you

Tama: please

I got up and made my way to his dorm. I knocked on the door,

"Tama?!" I heard whimpering and crying. I was sort of panicking because his door was locked,

"Tama, love, you need to unlock the door for me." I heard him moving around and suddenly the door swung open. He ran into me and buried his head into my shoulder, sobbing,

"Don't leave me!" I rubbed his back in circles and held him. I kissed his head,

"Let's go lay down, yeah?" He sniffed and pulled me into his dorm by my finger. I laid down and he curled up on top of me. He was struggling to breathe a little, he was shaking really bad and he wasn't talking. I didn't want to push him, so I just rubbed his back and waited for him to be ready. He suddenly sucked in a breath,

"Are you gonna leave- leave me?" I wrapped my arms around him,

"No? Why would you think that?" He sniffed and whimpered,

"I-I don't know. I'm sorry." He laid against my chest, silent, until he calmed down. When I noticed his breathing evened out, I pushed a little,

"What's wrong, love?" He scooted up a little and tucked his head into my neck,

"I'm really skinny..." My brow furrowed a little, but I just let him talk. He sighed,

"And I don't want you to leave me." I let it fall silent for a beat. I was about to reassure him, but he cut back in,

"It's really scary..." I traced circles across his shoulder blades,

"...cuz I really love you, Bunny. Like a lot. And I want to do everything to keep you around." I knew if he kept talking, he would throw himself into another panic attack. So, I cut in,

"Tamaki, you are perfect to me. Nothing's gonna change that." I gently stroked his cheek,

"I'm here, Tamaki. I'm not going anywhere. I know projecting your insecurities is your way of coping, but I need you to understand that I love you just the way you are. I want you to think, Tamaki..." I gently rocked back and forth,

"...I know it's difficult to, but do you honestly think I'm just going to leave because of your body? Is that all you think I'm with you for?" I cupped his face in my hands and made him look at me. His eyes were a little red from crying,

"N-No." He hung his head a little. I tipped his chin back up,

"Mhm... I know it makes you sad. I understand. But I'm not going anywhere." I kissed his forehead,

"Kay?" He nodded and snuggled back into me,

"I love you, Bunny." I hummed and kissed his head again,

"I love you too, Tama."

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