Pencil Breaker

Chapter 19- Normal

>.< when I was writing this part I just kept listening to this song NC17 on repeat :d even though it picks up half way through the first half really fits in to this chapter for me. Also I won't be able to post anything tomorrow the 10th sorry.

"Just cry it all out okay?" Micheal says as he pats me on the back.

I nod slowly but there aren't any tears left for me to cry. It's over with and I'm past it. I just needed to cry, to let everything out even though I was prepared for the rejection.

Micheal looks at me with a heartfelt smile and asks "do you want ride?"

"Mhmm" I chuckle as I wipe what's left of my tears, I wonder what Andrew was doing now? Did he just forget about it?

We slowly walk to the parking lot as it starts to get dark, it was still winter after all. I sunk deeper into my coat as I sniffle as I let out a deep breath that I could see. I pause and watch it as it dissolves into the air, disappearing forever.

I slip into Micheal's car, sinking into the seat, telling him my address. I couldn't let this hurt me. I still have my whole life ahead of me, dreams to fulfill and people to crush. I softly chuckle to myself as Micheal looks at me with confusion. This was just a minuscule moment in my life that I would soon forget, at least I hope I will. I couldn't let this hold me down, I will never be the girl sobbing in her room over a rejection. There are so many things for me to explore, if I let every little thing weigh me down I won't ever be happy.

"What is it? Some revelation?" Micheal asks.

"I've gotten over it" I sigh "Yea, I'll still be pretty hurt inside but I've accepted it and let it go" I smile.

"So fast?" Micheal asks, he obviously couldn't believe it.

"Yup, I can't let every bad thing affect me right? Besides I'm not going to sulk over this, I need to study!" I laugh as I take a tissue and blow in it.

"Tough girl huh?" Micheal laughs.

"You betcha" I smile as I try to warm my hands.

"Oh!" I exclaim "right there" I point at my house.

I wait until we get into my drive way "Thanks" I smile "I appreciate this"

As I start to close the door Micheal says "Hey, anytime you want to talk"

I nod appreciatively and gently close the door, running up the stairs to escape the cold. I watch him back out of the driveway, waving frantically at him before running in.

What a day but a new day huh? I go up the stairs and collapse on my bed. I shove some ear buds in my ears and play American Beauty by Fall Out Boy. I cover my eyes with my arm and let out a massive sigh. So after today I am a completely new person well not really but everything will be back to normal with an exception of the crush of course.

I roll around my bed in exhaustion for a while and jump off to change into a big t-shirt and some leggings, my everyday lazy attire. 

I was going to make the best of the rest of the day.

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I wake up and groan, stretching, rolling and finally getting off the bed to brush my teeth. New day, new Mai. I trudge downstairs to slap on some ham and cheese with my bread, a pretty plain and bland breakfast. As soon as it's time I slip outside into the cold and start my journey towards the bus stop. Walking up a ginormous hill and 4 long blocks it's even worse since a house hadn't bothered to shovel so I have to walk on the road. 

As I get off the school bus and make my way towards my locker, switching out my binders. I sigh as I close my locker, the same routine everyday.

Just as I'm about to make my way to the library I feel a push from behind me.

"Hey!"

I turn around to see two smiling girls and chuckle. 

Carrie turns her head as gives a sad smile "we heard"

They heard? I give a small chuckle "it isn't anything to be sad about"

Michelle gives a wide smile, she knew where this was going.

"I'm not going to fight it" I shrug "I accepted and I'm moving on" I narrow my eyes "did you hear this from Micheal?"

Michelle nods "Yea, he told us to see if you were all right"

"Well I am perfectly fine" I nod "library?"

They nod in response and we walk to the library which was bustling with people. I manage to find an empty table since everyone's at the computers and collapse, I want to go back to sleep.

People were laughing, shouting and arguing, not like a library at all.

"Hey" 

I had to guess who it was, I heard the word hey about 50 times a day.

"Hey" I smile as I look up at the guy "What's up Dylan?"

"What was the math homework?" he says as he scratches his head and laughs.

I tell him the pages and go back to lying my head back down as Carrie and Michelle talk about a new movie.

Shit. I look at the homework I wrote down and I realize I told him the wrong one. I get up, walking to his table to see him with a textbook and Brian, John, Nick and... Andrew.

"Hey, sorry, it was the wrong page" I laugh "hey" I nod at the others and stare at Andrew who was staring at me.

"Hey Andrew" I smile "How was the art homework?" I laugh.

He scrunches his eyebrows but realizes the question and quickly answers it "It was confusing but I found what I was looking for" he awkwardly laughs.

Yup, everything back to normal, kind of. I guess he was just surprised that I took everything so well? I guess it was going to be like this for now.