Pencil Breaker

Chapter 3- Red Hoodie

I don't think any of these are every going to edited lol

"Mai?" Micheal says.

"Hmm?"

"You're gripping me too tight" He chuckles as he shows my his arm.

"Right, sorry" I laugh as we step into the classroom "I'll see you later" I wave as I walk to the back of the classroom and collapse on my chair. 

Why was he here? In the middle of the school year?! This was unfucking believable. I can never see him again, I'll just devote my life to avoiding him.

"Hey" Carrie pokes "Did you see the new kid, Andrew".

"What!" I spring up. Everyone in the class looks at me and my teacher raises her eyebrow at me. Embarrasing myself in front of the class, okay.

"Sorry" I laugh weakly as I sink back into my chair. I look at Carrie and sees she's about to burst of laughter. 

I am such a train wreck right now. I stop talking to Carrie and pass her a note telling her that I'll talk next period. For the rest of the period I looked at the back of people's heads, not listening to a word anyone said.

I bumped into him. I fucking bumped into him in the hallway. He obviously knew who I was now. I couldn't hide anymore. As I thought about it more and more I felt my heart beat rise.

After the bell rang I stand up and wait for Carrie since we have lunch together with Michelle this period. Carrie was probably going to try to hover over me till I told her why I was like that in class. Yea, remember how I told you that Carrie was a serious person? I take that back now.

"You're like a turtle Carrie, a freaking a turtle" I say as I tap my foot.

"Thank you" She smiles "I happen to like turtles very much"

I roll my eyes at her while I start to walk out of the door to wait outside, people start to go in and I see Carrie try to make her way out.

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"So... What the hell happened in English huh?" michelle says as she sips her cherry smoothie.

"She freaked out is what" Carrie snorts.

"I-I-" I stutter.

"You like Andrew don't you" She points.

I feel the heat rise to my cheeks. Thanks body, glad I can count on you in this moment of crisis. I didn't like him... I didn't. Maybe I still had a smidge of affection left but that was because he was the first freaking guy I ever liked.

"You do!" Carrie yells, making everyone in the cafeteria look in our direction.

"Sorry hehe" I yell weakly. I look at some of the stares, familiar stares. Delia was secretly laughing at me at her table and I saw Nick smile at me. Standing on the lunch I saw Micheal stare and wave at him.

"Who are you waving to now?" Carrie grills. 

Michelle, doing nothing but enjoying the fantastic view.

"The new kid Mi-"

"Andrew?" Carrie interrupts.

"NO, shut your stupid mouth for just a second. There's another new kid, Micheal. THAT'S who I was waving at" I huff.

"Fiesty" Michelle chimes "PMS~" she sings.

"No it is not my time of the month" I scoff.

I look back at the line to see if Micheal was still there but he was gone. Out of the corner of my eye I caught someone in red staring at me. I bite my lip and look away. I can't, if I see him I have to go up to him. I feel my eyes well up.

"What the hell? What's wrong?! Carrie napkins!" Michelle whispers.

"It's... him" I say, wiping my eyes nonchalantly on my sleeves. I will not fucking cry over guy, I refuse to.

"Who" Carrie asks, cocking her head.

"Him, Andrew" I say, turning to both of them. 

Thank god he was gone.

"He's the guy, the guy I told you about" I say.

"Which guy" they say in unison.

"Pencil breaker" I explain softly.

A mere seconds passed where I stared at both of them. What were they thinking? Were they trying to make sense of it?

"WHAT?" Michelle exclaims "That motherfucker?!"

"Woah, did not see that coming" Carrie says.

"motherfucker? why is he a motherfucker? He didn't do anything to me, if anything you should be calling me that" I chuckle.

"How the hell are you so calm?!" Michelle says, raising her voice.

"I'm really not" I laugh "I found out right before English and I was just surprised, really surprised. Calm down Michelle".

She was just fuming. She knew that it wasn't his fault but she was still mad.

"You should go talk to him" Carrie says out of the blue.

"What?" we both say.

"Look we both know what you said before, you regretted it, you wanted to say sorry but you never saw him again but now's your chance Mai. Don't let it go" Carrie smiles.

Michelle sighs and sinks back into her chair "I hate the idea but she's right. You've been telling how from time to time you still want to say sorry so you get it over with".

"Maybe" I smile soflty. 

Yeah, it would be good, he already knew I was here so might as well see him I guess.

"I just can't believe that hunk was your crush-well I can believe that since he's so hot but what are the chances that the new guy is your old school crush. Not to mention that he used to like you!" Carrie gushs.

"Oh shut up, I'm not interested. I just feel guily, that's all" I sigh.

Yup, I'm just guilty. No other intentions.

I wonder how long I can tell myself that.