Mr. Horan »n.h«

DAY 5

I'm walking down the halls right? It's in the morning and today I felt kinda crappy. I kept having these bad wet dreams of Mr. Horan and I kept tossing and turning and I woke up this sexual mess. So I'm just wearing a pair of blue jeans shorts that a teacher called "inappropriate" while I walked in this morning. A simple white cami and a black cardigan. My hair looks teased and my make up looks dark.

"Woah. Did Mr. Horan sneak into your room or what?" Jenna joins me and we're walking to the bathroom. "Still have that vapor ciggerate?" She smirks.

"Yes.. I've been using it a lot, thanks." I give her a smile as I get some hand sanitizers as we walk into the cramped bathroom. "So. Can you come to my place after tutoring?" She's about to open a stall.

"Sure." I answer. I'm rubbing in the hand sanitizer and she opens the stall door and I hear a girl yell. "Someone's in here." And the stall door almost slams on Jenna's hand.

"Woah!" Jenna kicks the stall with her brown boots and before I know it all the girls in the bathroom is backing up and the girl in the stall is out and ready to fight. "Learn how to knock!" The girl snaps.

"You gotta fucking problem!" Jenna snarls. Everything falls silent and I step up to the scene. The girl is staring at Jenna and even if you're having a crappy day you shouldn't jump on someone just because of a small thing like that. I push Jenna back gently and her eyes never leave the girl's. "What's wrong? Blondie has to 'hold you back'? Bitch you're just to scared!"

And this time I turn to the girl.

"Drop it!" I warn, she's just staring at me like what are you going to do, and I hate it when people look at me like that so I get in her face. Everyone's watching, well all the girls anyways.

I feel my core bursting into flames again and my mind becomes clouded with all these fucked up thoughts and once again I'm wanting to kill someone again.

"Or what.?" She underestimates so I take her head, I wrap my fingers in her long greasy black hair and I kick the stall door open and just as I'm about to give this bitch a damn swirly I'm pulled back not by Jenna but by a girl with strawberry blonde hair and piercing blue eyes, their like crystals.

"It ain't worth it."

I take her words into consideration, and I let go of the girl and like that all eyes are on me. I walk to Jenna.

"Let's go." I say, and like that me and Jenna walks out of he congested bathroom and at that moment the bell rings and the students start to crowd the hallways trying to head for class. I'm trying to calm down, and my hands start to get a little shaky. "Thanks.." She says.

I don't say anything, because once again I came seconds away from being that thing I use to be and I'm not ready to go back to that because god only knows all those time I turned into that thing.

•••
It's the last period and I'm still in a daze and it's to the point where Mr. Horan even called on me to answer and I just said that I didn't know it which earned me some giggles but they stopped pretty damn quick when I asked them what their problem was.

So he's teaching and I'm just staring at the ground like I would love some of 'My Shit' right now then I hear the intercom calling me down to the principals.

I stand and everyone's looking at me and I just ignore them and on the way out I even slam the door a little, I make my way to the principals I'm trying to take these deep breaths but I have this voice telling me that I made a mistake by letting her walk out of that bathroom.

When I make it to the principals office, no ones in there but the principal and I sit down in the leather chair and look at him.

"Hello Sophie." He greets. I stay silent as he scans the computer screen. "Do you know why you're in here?"

"No."
"You don't know?"
"Nope."

"Sophie, you're in here because you tried to fight a girl in the bathroom this morning?"
"Actually no she tried to fight my friend and when I tried to pull my friend away she insulted me, I told her to drop it and she still wouldn't so whatever the fuck she told you is wrong. I defended myself.." I'm gritting my teeth and my knee is bouncing and I have his urge of kicking his face in.

"Sophie, I already heard the other girl's story-"

"Well. There was like sixty girls in that damn bathroom, I'm sorry that we didn't knock."

Now it's like my blood is boiling and I'm literally picturing myself tearing that girl apart and my mind is getting clouded and I'm getting hot.

So what he did was give me in school tomorrow, and I'm still really pissed off so when I get back to sixth period everyone looks at me and I'm so mad but I don't want to cause a scene and I'm sitting down and I need to feel something other then this rage.

I dig my nails into my leg and I can feel my face getting red and I slowly slide my nails up my legs and I can feel it breaking my skin, but the bell rings and everyone starts to leave.

So you're wondering why does it bother you so bad? Well, Imagin that you have this wild crazy sex frustration that's driving you to the edge and then this girl pops off something and you go to release it but you don't and it was so close to coming out it's at the top but you close the lid so it's just stuck there.

It wants to come out. Like a hungry animal that's stuck in a cage. I'm just sitting there staring at the ground, bouncing my left knee and in my mind I'm telling myself it's okay. I'm so mad that I want to scream bloody murder but I can't. Everyone's gone except Mr. Horan and he gets up and walks to me but I don't look at him.

"You okay?"

A/N
Well shit.
Where's her 'shit' when she needs it?
Does Mr. Horan help or does he make it worse?
What will Sophie do to release the anger?