Mr. Horan »n.h«

SWEET HARMONY

*So Niall has a girlfriend, I was thinking about taking a break on these books because I guess you can state that I felt, "sensitive" but if you're reading this and you like it, you like my books, then that makes you my friend and I love you*

•Sophie•
His words slipped out like something wet, and he just realized what he just had told me and man, the looks in those beautiful blue eyes.

"Niall?," and he slips out of me and straightens his posture and we get our things on and Zayn has left, "What did you say?"

We exit the small heated closet that now has the scent of sex, and his hair is damp with sweat.

His back is turned to me and I can see his back glisten with sweat, I don't know if it's because the closet was so warm or that he's now so nervous. He drags his right hand through his hair.

"Sophie.. I never meant for this to happen, I really just- sit down we need to have a talk."

He makes me really nervous, what's so serious that we need to sit down for?

I take a seat next to him and run my tongue over my lips, and just stare blankly at him as he stares down at the floor.

"When I first saw you, I knew deep down that you would be the one that I would go for. How your hair fell in your face, your eyes and the way they flashed, your body -- everything..," and he trails off.

"Niall--"

"Sophie, just let me finish. I first started this, not with you but with a young girl named Needy. But instead of blonde and green eyes, she had chestnut brown hair that met her ribcage and these flashing blue eyes that took me by storm."

I digest what he tells me, and I can't help but to feel jealous about how he talks about this so called "Needy".

"I never took action though. She was, I guess you can say, normal, she had two parents, siblings, she had nice grades, friends. Pretty normal. I never took actions to take it any further because I'm a teacher, and she - she was just simply my student that I saw five days a week. One day, I found my girlfriend sleeping with this other guy, you know Danielle, well see I dated her for two years."

I take that in and it actually is really interesting that he didn't do anything with Needy, and that he dated Danielle for two years.

"She was begging me not to leave her, and I told her okay and I forgave her. But it never stopped and finally one day I broke down after class. I can honestly say that I loved Danielle, she tore me apart. Needy just so happened to come back because she left her book, and she found me sitting there crying over Danielle." He half laughs. "She always had something for me, that girl. So it lead to her comforting me, at first I was afraid and skittish, I didn't want to have relations with a student, what if everyone found out, but no one did and that's when it all began."

"Student after student, just another fuck." He shrugs. "No one else found out, not the law or the parents. Even though I'm just in my early twenties doesn't mean they can't throw me in jail, Sophie Baby you're only a so called, minor."

His words send these chills down my spine and goosebumps rises and I'm just staring at his piercing eyes as they dart across the floor. He sounds haunting and like he's slowly using it.

He's telling me everything, but can I do the same?

"Harry, you know Harry," he looks at me and I nod, "He would always tell me to just settle down and stop with my students.. Then you walked in--"

"Niall," I bolt up on my feet and turn to him and he's confused by my sudden actions. "I'm not who I say I am, you can't care about me because I'm more fucked up then I seem..."

This smile splits across his face and he shakes his head. He sits there sitting down in front of me and I can hear my heart pounding against my chest.

"Sophie, I'm sure what you have to tell me isn't that bad..," he shakes his head.

"Go ahead. Tell me, love.." He says, the pet name coming from him makes me jittery on the inside.

"Niall. I don't just take medication for my anger, I take medication for my depression." and his face falls flat. "I take anti-depressants because when I was in Indiana.. I tried to commit suicide by jumping off a bridge one day after school..." and he stands looking at me in shock and I don't know if his face expression resembles anger, sadness, or what.

"They put me into this psych ward, and as soon as I got out I moved.. Here.. I have fucked up breakdowns...and I have this really bad temper, that can be turned on in seconds.."

I feel these tears slowly make their way down my cheeks and he's just standing there like, what?

The only thing I can do is hope and even pray that he don't walk out, but my prayers aren't answered.. He just shakes his head, and brushes past me and walks to my door.

"Niall," I wipe my tears, "Please don't go.. I -- I feel the same damn way--"

But my sentence is cut short because he whips around so fast that all I see is this blurry flash because in seconds his hands are on each side of my head and he's staring so hard as my head is being held and I can feel the wind being ripped out of me.

"Niall please.. Please don't leave me..." I'm crying and all he can do is stare into my eyes and my hands meet his face. I place my right hand on his cheek and the left hand on the other.

"Why would you ever do something like that to yourself?!" I see this stuff brimming his eyes. His flashing eyes.

Tears.