CLASS 2-A | TODODEKU

✘ CH. 20

[FRIDAY | 12PM]

MIDORIYA'S POV

This is the worst day.

For the rest of my life, this is where I despise myself the most about everything. I tried talking to Kacchan yesterday but he keeps avoiding me like I'm not someone he knew since childhood. His room is locked but I'm pretty sure Kacchan's inside. I never saw him since our last period so I waited outside his room for six hours, messaging him that I'm just outside his door but I received no reply.

It's getting late already and I'm starting to feel very tired while sitting in front of Kacchan's door. I can't feel any energy anymore maybe because of lack of sleep and the crying that I did for the whole night.

...everything sucks.

I suddenly feel hungry and remembered that I never eaten dinner so I went down and saw leftover Katsudon on the fridge from the order everyone did a while ago. When I saw the food, I feel so happy but not enough to brush away my worries.

When I took the food and reheated it, Uraraka and Iida walked in and looked at me in concern, saying that I look bad. They joined me on the table and looked very worried.

"Deku kun, you should eat your Katsudon or it'll get cold." Uraraka said, giving me a concerned expression.

"You ok, Midoriya kun?" Iida-kun asked.

I sighed.

"...we broke up, Kacchan and I." I muttered, making the two gasp in surprise.

"WHAT!?" They both said simultaneously. I nodded my head and sighed afterwards.

"B-but why? W-What happened?" Iida kun asked with shock in his voice. I started to think of a way how to explain everything to them.

"Well, he got jealous towards Todoroki kun and I, then he ranted about how he's noticing  that both of us become so much closer lately, accusing me of cheating on our relationship." I explained. I raised my head up and looked at the two anxiously. "I didn't cheat I swear." I added gently in persuasive manner.

"Why would he think like that? Does he never trust you?" Uraraka asked in which the same question I had about everything.

"I don't know, I guess so." I replied. I looked down again and looked into my fist while playing my thumbs. "...but I'm pretty sure I'm the problem here so it's all my fault, I guess." I added while sighing. I'm so tired but my thoughts keep running inside my mind and it's making me crazy.

"...stop blaming yourself Midoriya ku-." Iida-kun said but I replied instantly.

"It really is my fault Iida-kun. It's ok." I said, cutting him off. "I-I said to him that I never liked him back." I added which followed by an awkward silence.

Iida and Uraraka keep their mouths open slightly out of disbelief. They can't believe what they just heard.

They're maybe disappointed. Well, I don't blame them if they do.

...I too, am disappointed in myself.

"Midoriya-kun..." Iida muttered quietly.

"Deku-kun, I love you but I disagree with you this time. You should've said that sooner, or even when you two started going out! You should've never jumped into something like relationships when you're not clearly sure about you're feelings. It's a very reckless move, Deku." Uraraka said, trying not to offend me. Iida-kun nodded his head, agreeing with Uraraka's words. I also agree with her but it made me feel so much worse about myself.

"Look, I know. It's just-, I thought I can like him back whenever I wanted but I didn't. It's harder than I thought it would be. I have no idea how romantic things work so I guess I b-become too r-reckless." I explained with my voice shaking and tears threatening to spill again. I can feel my heart is almost giving up out of the guilt that I'm feeling.