CLASS 2-A | TODODEKU

✘ CH. 21

[warning: smut ahead]
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I can feel my knees getting weak as I looked into his eyes in disbelief.

Todoroki kun, THE Shoto Todoroki, likes me? The thought of it sounds very ridiculous.

Who would like someone like me, especially when you're perfect like Todoroki?

It's like the time froze while we look into each other's eyes as I'm trying to process everything.

I hitched my breath from the sudden realization.

W-what about Kacchan?

I looked down, avoiding Todoroki kun's desperate stares. The pressure is making it worse as I'm trying to think what to say next.

I needed to answer Todoroki kun now. I can't left him hanging.

"Midoriya?" He said, calling my name in the softest voice I have ever heard from him. I suddenly felt the nervousness strike my body, overwhelming my mind.

Right now, I'm struggling. I literally just lost my boyfriend the other day.

...I wished that Todoroki should've waited for a little bit.

"W-Why me?" The only thing that I managed to reply. It's so hard to think after what recently happened between Kacchan and I. My mind keeps thinking about a lot of things it might explode anytime soon.

I had a lot of probable scenarios that may happen.

What if I said yes? What would Kacchan think?

...but what if I said no? Am I going to make another bad decision?

Todoroki removed his hand from my cheeks while looking to the ground. Both of us refused to see each other in the eyes, scared of what might happen next and to see how we'll react.

"I-I don't know, M-Midoriya. I never felt like this to someone before. I'm not even attracted to a guy or to a girl. I only focused to be a great hero but I've never been so sure in my life. I know I'm not someone you spend with a lot. I'm not a childhood friend but every time you're around, I feel very happy. I-I'm different when I'm with you." He said as he shifted his eyes into my direction, lifting his head. "Midoriya you are the reason I changed. You made me accept who I am.

...Izuku Midoriya, I like you."

I never imagined that Todoroki would confess to someone in general, especially to someone generic like myself. He's the most ideal guy out there and here he is confessing to someone very simple and has nothing to offer.

...but the weird thing is, it doesn't help me to be confidence. It made me feel to be more insecure about myself.

I already know my answer. I wanted to tell him my answer, but my mind is running around one name.

Kacchan.

I'm so selfish.

I don't want to be seen as a cheater. I'm not an asshole, I just have a bad decision making skills.

...but I also don't want to hurt Todoroki kun.

If I'm the past Deku, I will say yes and make myself fall for Todoroki based from my idea of loving someone back but it already happened with Kacchan and I failed horribly.

And here I am, about to make the worst decision that I will probably ever make.

"I-I'm sorry, T-Todoroki kun." I said while looking down, feeling undeserving of looking him in the eye. I can feel my tears welling in my eyes as I try my best not to let them fall.