Summer Love!

Girls day out

About noon I went down to the other girls room they were all ready and waiting on me when I walked in they all looked at me and said are you ok I said I'm fine I went home and slept and processed my feelings I didnt even recieve a text or phone call last night they said probally because he passed out in the bathroom last night hes probally still either passed out or really sick. I shrugged and said I need this girls day we started with getting our nails and hair done. Then we headed to the day spa and for our massages half way through our massages my phone started buzzing like crazy they all said at the same time hes realized hes messed up I shrugged and said I'll just turn my phone off so I did once we were done with our massages we went and got some smoothies and headed to find some new outfits for tonight when we went out on the town here in dublin I was exited but in the back of my mind I was thinking maybe I was just a rebound for him and that's why he thought he felt the way he did a tear came down and then I heard Bells phone go off I came back to reality she said McKenzie its liam he said Niall is freaking out trying to get in touch with you do you still have your phone off I said yeah I'm not ready to talk will you tell him to tell Niall I need some time right now. Then her phone started ringing she answered she said its Niall I said tell him I need today and tonight to think I'll talk to him tomorrow we finally found our outfits and changed we decided to go out for dinner before we went to a street festival that was happening then we headed to a pub I got a glass of wine and sipped on that while the others were taking shots I kept seeing Penelope texting but I didnt ask who we all were dancing and having a blast I excused myself to use the bathroom while I was in there I turned on my phone I had 80 missed calls and 50 new text I couldn't believe it he was insane I didnt know how to deal with this i then thought i heard my name being called when i stepped out a all to familiar voice was calling my name i could hear it over the music i quickly dipped out the back exit door and started to panick she must have caved and told him where we were I started to take deep breaths and then the tears started to flow they were panic tears I then heard some one say they we're gonna call the cops so I sucked it up and went inside I instantly thought I was suffocating but I kept walking I found the girls and he was there screaming my name I tapped him on the shoulder he jerked around like he was about to swing i said Niall what are you doing he said your here i said come on please come with me he took my hand and we walked out back towards the marina and I sat on the bench he was pacing back and forth I'd never seen anyone like this i went up to him and took his hand i said are you ok he looked like he was having a panic attack i sat him down and told him to breath with me i held his hand and talked to him he finally calmed down and i said I'm not sure what's going on but I'm ready to listen to whatever you need to tell me. He said they told me you thought you we're just my rebound that's not true I said ok he said what I said last night happened 3 years ago I've been single ever since because I've been afraid to love until you came into my life on that plane I need you to understand that. I need you to understand that this is why I am the way I am this is why I have trust issues but please dont let this push you away from me I'm different because of you I'm finally able to feel again because of you I'm not walking around numb all the time I said Niall look at me I'm not going anywhere I've already told you this I have fallen in love with you and I'm here for the ups and downs and looped di loos I'm all in but you look like you havent slept at all in days and to be honest you kinda smell so how about we get you home so you can shower and sleep he said are you staying with me I said I can if you promise you wont act like this anymore he said ok I said well let's tell them were headed home and me and you will go. On our way to the train he kept saying how sorry he was I said you don't have to apologize once on the train he looked up at me and asked is that what I am I was confused but at the same time thought he must be thinking in his head because I do that all the time I looked at him he looked pained in his eyes not like the blue eyed boy I'd been hanging with the last couple weeks I said what do you mean he said Im your rebound at the airport before you got on the plane you broke up with your BF am I your distraction from him. I said Niall your actually not your the one who showed me what I wanted in a man I meant what I said I'm so in love with you and I want you to know that and not be afraid to feel that way back I'm not like your ex I won't do that to you he then leaned his head on my shoulder and said I'm so glad you said that I took his hand and realized he was trembling we finally made it home he ran straight to the bathroom he was sick I went in and ran him a bath while he brushed his teeth I then took his hand and brought him over and helped him Undress and helped him climb in once he was sitting in there I took the sponge and wiped it over him he had tears start to come down his face he leaned up and kissed me I could taste the tears he whispered I'm so sorry you have to deal with this he said you run when your afraid I do this I whispered and said it's ok it doesn't change how I feel about you I went and got his cloths ready he got out and got dressed he came and found me on the couch he sat and layed his head in my lap he glanced up and said I don't know what I'm gonna do when you have to go back home I said we'll figure it out he then dosed off I covered him with a blanket and sat a bottle of water and Advil on the table and went to bed. The next day when I woke up I went out o start my coffee there was a dozen Rose's on my counter with a note and a vanilla lavender latte from Luna's cafe my favorite coffee shop I took my latte and the note and went and sat in the recliner I opened the note it read
Dear McKenzie,
How will I ever be able to repay you for last night I'm so sorry for how I acted heres a start to my apology I hope you like the Rose's and latte and I'll be back later this morning
Love Niall ❤
That made me smile he was in bad shape last night makes me think what will happen once I leave in 2 weeks my heart is already crushing thinking about leaving. Once I finished my latte i went and jumped in the shower when i got out i was rummaging through the closet trying to decide what to wear when I heard the door open he came and tapped on my door I said its open he walked in with a little gift bag and a teddy bear he said this is for you madam I smiled and said you dint have to do this he said I know I dont have to I want to I need to show you how sorry I am I quickly got dressed when I dropped the towel he whistled I immediately blushed and said you like what you see I said keep bringing me all these gifts you'll get a up close and personal look at it he winked at me. once I was ready I opened the gift it was a locket necklace with our picture in it and a bracelet he said this is so when you leave in 2 weeks you wont forget me i said i will never forget you we are gonna still be together you know he said you say that now we headed out to the living room and watched some tv while we decided what we wanted to do he all of a sudden said you know you dont have to leave you could stay with me I sat quietly for a minute and whispered you know that's not possible. He frowned and said it could be if it was what you wanted I said how about we go for a walk we went hiking and once we were back I said I think I'm gonna take a shower and sleep for a while he said ok I'll but before he could finish his sentence I quickly said alone he got a worried look on his face but kissed my cheek and said I love you then headed out. I headed to my room and my mind was racing I glanced down at my airline ticket maybe I should just go ahead and head out but how would I get there I quickly through my things in my suit case I wrote a note and left it on the counter so Niall would find it I went through my phone and hit send they answered on the second ring I said I need a favor can you give me a ride to the airport they said are you sure you wanna do this I said yes its what's best for both of us within 10 minutes I heard a knock on the door I answered it and there he stood Zayn came to give me my ride no questions asked. He said are you sure this is what you want I said yeah it's the only way we were finally on our way we had an hour drive about 30 minutes in I got a text from Niall he said please dont do this that meant he found my note he said we can work through this we can figure it out just dont get on that plane I'm headed to the airport dont get on I'm begging you tears started falling we finally made it to the airport he walked me in and asked if I wanted him to wait I smiled and hugged him and said no but thank you so much for bringing me he said you know he does love you and would do anything for you even moving to the states with you I said I cant ask him to do that he said well have a safe trip I smiled and headed to the security check I made it through and was almost to the boarding check when I got another text from Niall saying if there is any piece of you that feels for me I'm begging you dont get on that plane I need to talk to you before you leave please I love you so much. I couldn't do it I took my bag and went and sat on a bench 30 minutes later I watched him walk in frantic glancing around everywhere he then sat and buried his face in his hands he said she didnt wait I got up and slowly headed towards him I tapped him on his shoulder he said I'm fine without looking up I tapped again he jumped up like he was about to yell when he saw me he cried and threw his arms around me I said Niall I'm sorry I'm so scared I thought this was best for us he said no this was best for you not me he said if you wont stay here let me come with you I'll go with you and we'll figure out everything else later I said I cant ask you for that he said your not asking I want to go with you I want this to work I smiled and said are you sure he said yea but I do need to pack before we leave I don't have anything I smiled and said ok we can leave when the girls do I guess he said how about you stay with me until we leave I said I'd like that he kissed me and said I really thought I'd lost you. On the way back he held my hand the whole time kissing it every so often he said your quiet I said I'm just thinking he said about what I said about how lucky I am to have found you he smiled and kissed my hand again when we got to his place he took my bag for me and we walked up his place was so neat he said I have 2 bedrooms so if you want your own space you can stay in the guest room I said do you really have to ask that he said I was hoping you'd say that I made room for your things in my closet and my bathroom I smiled and said I'm the luckiest girl alive he said I think I'm pretty lucky too once I was uh unpacked again I went and took a shower when I was out we went and ordered some take out and found something to watch he then whispered who took you to the airport tonight I couldn't snitch on Zayn so I lied and said I took a cab he said why you could called one of the boys almost like he already knew but I'd never tell. Once we ate we decided to go to sleep as it was late he took my face and kissed me he pulled back just a little and whispered I love you I want this forever and kissed me again I smiled and said I could see us for ever we then both went to sleep intertwined in each others arms.