𝐖 𝐈 𝐋 𝐃 - Hanji x Reader (fem)

Wild 12: I'm Never Leaving

It was nerve wracking. Beautiful, yet nerve wracking. This had always been what the outside world is for me; beautiful but occupied with titans. The sun was dim along with the sky, yet I haven't seen any green flare to announce our retreat. The Marlene Squad infront of me were silently yet nervously riding their horses in a constant speed; keeping up with the formation.

They had forecasted the weather wrong, seeing as to how it's likely to snow in a few hours. My thoughts shifted to the woman I've been with not so long ago; Hanji-- wondering how she's been keeping up currently. With or without my reassurance, I just know she's still somehow worrying.

I couldn't blame her for that, she's lost Petra unexpectedly in a deadly expedition. Who's to say she wouldn't lose me now? I huffed a sigh, looking down. I had lied. And I feel bad for it. I shouldn't have promised Hanji such thing. I shouldn't have promised I'd come back to her. I know the risks of going outside, I know how slim the chances of survival are. And I know there's absolutely no assurance I'd be able to come back safe and sound just like how I promised her to.

"We have been wandering for an hour now." Squad Leader Marlene who had been on my right; muttered under her breath. Her confusion evident on the frown forming on her face. "It's going to snow."

I stared up at the sky momentarily, its angry and grey clouds proved Squad Leader Marlene's statement. I sure hope we're going to retreat before it could even happen. Heaven knows how risky it is to go out on a snow. "You think they're going to let us leave soon?" I asked the leader beside me.

She lets out a snort, "No. Commander Erwin's up to something. We're not only going to capture some titans-- we're probably going to visit our old headquarters too. Well, that's what I think. This route's familiar for me." My eyes widened.

Is this why Hanji's been worrying? Because she knew the mission's more crucial than we think it is? This should be no more new for us, though, Commander Erwin had always been like this. Full of surprises. Horrid surprises. Surprises that kills hundreds of soldiers.

I'm glad we're only few, plus most of us are elites. Well, most. Not me, though. I've only just started stepping up on my game. We went silent for awhile, each of Marlene Squad I'm with in deep thoughts.

I was thinking of Hanji. She was no doubt, safe. Atleast I hope. She's mostly with our Squad and Moblit, though Jean and Eren are with the other squads, she's mostly with the skilled ones. I shouldn't worry that much, especially since my friends are skillful enough to protect the Section Commander. Plus Levi wouldn't allow Hanji to get hurt.

I'm positive.

"WATCH OUT!"

My eyes shut close as I landed hard on the ground, the impact causing extreme pain in all parts of my body. My head started throbbing painfully. Shit. A titan. What the actual fuck? They should've seen such coming!

I immediately stood up on my knees, glancing behind me just to meet a 7m titan responsible of the attack. Its eyes were terrifically big and glued unto my figure. Well shit. "(Y/N)!" Squad Leader Marlene yelled, her voice trembling yet stern at the same time.

It's an abnormal. Seeing as how it came from the right wing and went straight to us. I took a few steps behind, trying not to trigger anything from the titan. They were absolute clusterfucks type of creatures even Hanji couldn't somehow read.

"Squad Leader Marlene! I'll take care of its nape, immobilize their legs." I stated, trying to sound calm as I could. 

I wasn't. I was scared shitless if anything. I still wanted to see Hanji and live life with her. She's waiting for me. And I shamefully promised her to come back. "On it!" Marlene drew her blades, which I did the same before hooking myself unto the nearest abandoned building.