living with My childhood crush

Chapter 3:face Time!

I forgot to breathe the second I faced him. I was feeling so weak, I was scared whether I would be able to hold back  my emotions or not . The situation  was so intense, the time seemed to stop. Instead of capturing his beauty, I pretended as if I did not know who he was, and acted a bit rough I would say.

"do you need anything?", I asked trying to be natural.

"you?, here and what will I need?", he asked looking quite disturbed.

"do I know you?, you came into my room!so I guess I have the right to ask you what you need!!", I responded back without any emotion.

"what did you just said?!!", he replied back looking very irritated.

"what you heard!", I replied before my brain even got time to process it. And I was quite shock as well. I never spoke that badly to him, never in my life. It's hurting so damn much but I needed to do it for him. It's gonna  worth it ! I mean I hope.

"are you dumb or something, don't give me fake assumptions that you don't remember me!", he clarified while approaching towards me. If he continues the steps I will lose  control of everything. That is why I reacted like :

"don't try to come closer okay, just tell me what you need and why will I be dumb! I don't know you damn it!", I finally uttered.

"what the fuck are you trying to get by doing all these? And anyway why will I be interested with a clingy and dumb person like you. And why on earth will I need anything from you. You are nobody for me!! Seriously, so now I understand, it's you that put my girlfriend in that mood right?!, you bitch!!! ", he started shouting like a mad person.

"I guess you are the one to be called stupid, because I don't know you, I don't know how many times should I tell you. Wait I forgot, mad people actually do not understand when we talked to them right! And you are not the one to tell me what kind of person I am, did you raise me so with what standards,  you are talking to me and your girlfriend or sorry your bitch is the one who was looking for attention but guess what she is that much in need that when I ignore her she pouted, I guess you should give her more attention instead of wasting other people's life!! ", I roared at him.

Wait if that bitch is his girlfriend then he is my roommate. Holyshit! How can that be possible, are you looking for the most possible way to kill me sooner God ,then I must say that you 've got the right choice because you know me too well!

" what did you just say you undesirable soul!", he roared back.

I was so freaking hurt, how could he say that, is he doing it intentionally ?! . Doesn't he know that I used to have a soft corner for him. Me who thought that he might like me one day. All of this was a fake thought, my soul is crying silently, I can't express how sad I was at that moment because he was just in front of me.

"you know I guess you are both deaf and mad! So I'm not gonna waste any more seconds with you. You don't value my time you stupid, asshole!", I screamed as loud as I could to express all the sadness that I was trying to hold back.

"you are the one starting this conversation, you thirsty bitch!", he roared distancing himself from me as if he was escaping from a fly which was disturbing him. And that completely disgusted me that instead of trying to defend myself against his extremely hurtful words, I ignored him.

" what the fuck are you trying to show?", he shouted as if he would end me on the spot of he could.

I keep my mouth shut and proceeding to place my things in the wardrobe and place my books on the shelves.

"are you trying to prove that I'm the one who seeks for attention, is it?!", he shouted unexpectedly all of a sudden.

Again I ignored him and finally I achieved in placing my belongings to their respective new places then I passed beside him without uttering any single word or even tried to express any emotions.

But then he also did not utter any words. He surely do not care! Why I am so freaking attached to someone like him but thank God that I succeeded to be rude with him. This will help me to know his true colour or the expectations will start again as before and I know there will be nothing good out of this.