living with My childhood crush

Chapter 6:the First Classes

Everything seems to make sense all of a sudden, the true side of my supposed best friend and that I have to finally face my 'crush' and that also with her bitch of girlfriend. Life somehow is kicking my ass now when it should have done it long time back when I was in high school. Now, I finally understand each and everything that my friends as teenagers had gone through. Back then,  you got me who had never gone through having to face my crush or his girlfriend or facing fake friends while I used to give pretty helpful advices. Surprisingly, I have no clue what to do with my life now!

I'm sure it's pretty relatable my friend, so I assume that I am the main character of my own life and I won't let others  ruin it. Obstacles will be here  till I will die. So let's not give a fuck.

The room was pretty clean in my side while Drew's  side was a total disaster. I don't know why but I feel like his wife and wanted to put on some order but then I remembered about his bitch of girlfriend and all the things that I have to go through yesterday.I precipitated towards the bathroom without having a second thought and wow, a God of beauty, a shirtless Drew was in front of me brushing his teeth. Damn he was looking so hot, no wonder why they took that much time at bed yesterday. He must be a pro at it, no doubt.The combination of his fair skin color , his tattoo from his back to the back of his neck and his eyes a mixture of green and Grey eyes make it so difficult to not look at him. Wait a second, what the  fuck, i was looking at him not even realising that he was well aware that I was looking at him and that's how I was rewarded by an eye contact . Shit, I don't want to ignore him but I have to.

I rushed out of the bathroom. Well, well, the eye contact made me... No it didn't happen all these years how can my hormones changed that quick and that also for the boy that I can never afford.

Eventually, he did not say anything and went out from the dorm, I brushed my teeth, put on a white shirt and a very loosy Jeans and my white converse shoes. I wore  nothing as such for accessories apart my watch, put my hair into a ponytail and I was ready.

I entered in my respective class and everyone was looking at me as if I stole their boyfriends and then I realised  that Madison ( Drew 's girlfriend) was spreading the rumors of my ' friendship breakup'. And obviously, if she was the one narrating then I had to be the villain, there was no way out of it and my best friend would be the victim. The most hurtful thing was that my ex-bestie was there and she acted exactly the way that I am feeling because I am the victim!

Great, I am feeling like an actual adult now! The class finally started and weirdly everyone was asked to introduce themselves. When it was my turn, everyone was on the verge of  laughing at me but then a boy made his entrance. Then, my little introduction was skipped and replaced by the boy.

"good morning everyone, so I am Andrew as everyone knows (well not everyone buddy because I don't know you motherfucker) I am here to gain some weapon as a lawmaker to rule the world tomorrow.",he said while winking to the girls. And all the girls laugh like a slut.

" rule the world or rule girls, I have a submissive trait sir", one of Madison's friends stated as if she was about to remove her clothes  right on the spot.  I mean come on ,there are other people in that room ,even though that i myself find that guy attractive,in a certain manner .  Well , he is not handsome enough to help me forget about Drew.He ( Andrew) was tall ,handsome face,grey brown eyes,brown skin color accompany with a black v- shaped shirt  which hugs his muscles perfectly. Anyways ,this kind of guy will never even spoke a word with me ,so his details are not important.Most probably ,the latter who had spoken about being submissive will become his girlfriend.Girls like me are invisible.Wait a second that does not mean that i'm a shy or even a softhearted type of girl neither an 'intello' ;i have never come out first on anything.Meanwhile, I'm a little mixture of being boyish and girlish which makes it completely impossible for boys to be attracted to me.

Well, the boy sat beside the girl that spoke about being submissive and the class continued. During that Seminar, I found that the girlfriend of Drew was somehow loyal, she did not even utter a words neither judge someone from afar. People may even think that I am gay due to the way I was observing that girl.

What did she has that I don't? This has always been my question each time that Drew got himself a girlfriend. Am I too uncommon from other girls, is it the way that I carry myself or the fact that me being me!

It was finally lunch time, I took this opportunity to eat very quickly and get through the recent notes that I took in the morning. May be people would say, "gosh she is taking her senior year very seriously" while the real reason behind it is the fact that I don't have any friend so I have to manage enjoying my own company. Well, may be not this time because in front of me was Drew and his girlfriend, touching here and there. Actually, it's not just them but there was mostly sensual couples all around me. Weirdly, I was angry of feeling excluded from the 'lovers class'. Not only did I lose my best friend but I guess I am losing control of myself as well.

I was ready to move to another place while I took only one moment to glance at Drew and he was already staring at my soul. The fact, that everyone was talking to him and him fixing me as If he was staring at my soul. I swear he was about to stand up and I quickly ran into another place. Come on I have feelings too.